lost keys
So...Wednesday night I went over to Delco's and probably made a complete fool of myself if I remember because I was sooo drunk. I lost my keys. So now I have no bus pass, no car keys, no room key...no nothing. All I have is my ID. Which is VERY odd that I would bring simply my ID over to Delco's when it is ALWAYS attached to my keys...I think they are at his house he just hasn't looked hard enough for them. Which is why he better let me come over and help him look because I am sooo pissed and depressed that I lost them. They have to be somewhere over there...there's no other possibility. Anyways...I said something to him when I first got there and we got into a fight and he started yelling at me to leave right now and I wouldn't. He grabbed my arms like Matt did but obviously not as hard and I just wanted to flip out. I ended up sitting on the bed listening to him tell me to leave just focusing on breathing and being calm and I was like...Delco...and he kept sayin no leave. But my calmness paid off because finally he shut his door and I stayed. He didn't want to cuddle with me AT ALL though which was kinda mean but whatever. I ended up crying too because I was like...can I ask you something? And he said yea so I asked if he'd heard about Matt and I told him and started crying and then apologized for crying and apologized for how I reacted when he put his hands on me but that it reminded me of Matt. I was like Matt punched me and like G and everybody else his reply was...what?...why??? Anyways...he prolly thinks I'm a nutcase. Which is why I need to go over there and be normal for once in my damn life. I went over there sooo drunk and I had this whole great thing in my head of what was about to happen and it didn't go that way AT ALL. He wanted me to come over at 8:30!! LOL Cuz he was horny and all this and he kept tellin me to hurry up and he asked me to wear a skirt too haha...he's so crazy I love it. Anyways...I haven't talked to him since yesterday. I will see him 2night with the rest of the team at Midnight Mania which means I'll see Matt and everybody out on the court for the first time inawhile. It'll be kinda weird because I've been through so much with a lot of them since I've seen them all in the spotlight. And everybody is hypin Quise this year too I'm excited to see what he got LOL...Quise...oh my. But as far as Delco goes....I will have to call him/text him 2mrw to see if it's cool if I come over to help look for my keys. I don't see why that would be a problem but sometimes you just never really know. I REALLY hope he has them though. I swear I remember them being there but...who knows. I'm not sure where else they could be. If I dropped them I would have noticed and heard them so I couldn't have done that...they MUST be there. Ohhhh I need my keys so bad. I wish Delco would find them. I am out tho....peace.
*~Ashley~*
*~Ashley~*