(no subject)
Just got back from visiting Grandma.
It was ridiculously hard not to cry. She was upset that my brother couldn't be there "to say goodbye."
It's hard to believe her when she says these things though, b/c she always talks about how she's not going to be around long. Even when she was perfectly healthy and not in the hospital. But obviously it's more upsetting now...
My mom can't stop crying.
She was talking about bringing a radio to play some Sinatra for my grandma. I pulled out my phone and played Andrea Bocelli for her instead. She sang along to Besame Mucho and it was a pretty great moment.
Still not looking forward to graduation though. It seems really pointless. What's there to celebrate? It was a stupid fucking decision to go to law school. Yay, now you have loans for the rest of your life, but you'll never get a job! And the person that would be the most proud of me can't be there. And the person who would be the second most proud is miserable that the first one can't be there. It just sucks.
All I want to do is go to work. It's nice there. No one really talks to me and I just sit at a computer (that I can't access LJ or FB or Gmail even) and do work. Read files, type shit, print shit, copy shit. It's great. Fucking mindless.
I kinda regret law school now b/c I would like to just be a paralegal. Then I could get up and move to FL tomorrow if I wanted. I dont have to be accepted to practice law there. Fuckin' bullshit. That's gotta be the worst part of this shit. I can't go whereever I want to and apply for jobs in my field. Nonsense.
It was ridiculously hard not to cry. She was upset that my brother couldn't be there "to say goodbye."
It's hard to believe her when she says these things though, b/c she always talks about how she's not going to be around long. Even when she was perfectly healthy and not in the hospital. But obviously it's more upsetting now...
My mom can't stop crying.
She was talking about bringing a radio to play some Sinatra for my grandma. I pulled out my phone and played Andrea Bocelli for her instead. She sang along to Besame Mucho and it was a pretty great moment.
Still not looking forward to graduation though. It seems really pointless. What's there to celebrate? It was a stupid fucking decision to go to law school. Yay, now you have loans for the rest of your life, but you'll never get a job! And the person that would be the most proud of me can't be there. And the person who would be the second most proud is miserable that the first one can't be there. It just sucks.
All I want to do is go to work. It's nice there. No one really talks to me and I just sit at a computer (that I can't access LJ or FB or Gmail even) and do work. Read files, type shit, print shit, copy shit. It's great. Fucking mindless.
I kinda regret law school now b/c I would like to just be a paralegal. Then I could get up and move to FL tomorrow if I wanted. I dont have to be accepted to practice law there. Fuckin' bullshit. That's gotta be the worst part of this shit. I can't go whereever I want to and apply for jobs in my field. Nonsense.