AHHH!
AHHH!!!!
i cant stand my mom sometimes... it's like she wants to me to live a horrible life... she TRYS to get me jealous about the Crystal/Karen thing and when i tell her to stop b/c it wont work she says im stupid and im gonna end up getting hurt... and then she bitches at me for NO reason ALL the time... like right now she wants on the computer and im not going "fast enough" for her so shes callin me a bitch... great parenting huh?!... AHHH! i wanna scream at her so bad... i just want to tell her to leave me the hell alone and not talk to me... but if i did id be "grounded"... sure maybe shes under stress from work and shit but she doesnt have to make us feel that way too... if she doesnt leave me the hell alone im gonna break down and cry just like i have every other night this week... why does she have to make my life a living hell every single day?! AHHHH! i just wanna scream...
like i told tarryn in her note today... "sometimes i just want out of this life... i have cried myself to sleep every night for the past week and i fight with my mom all the time... sometimes i think its not worth it"... but i guess if i can wake up to being with Trevor and my friends and stuff every day then it is... no matter how much i hate my mom... well ok maybe i dont hate her... but i very strongly dislike her at the moment...
and now that i think about it the whole thing with Trevor was basically caused by her putting all these crazy thoughts in my head... thats one thing me and my dad get along about he told me i had no reason to be jealous... and i wasnt until i came home and my mom started saying shit... and now shes trying to do it again?!... no i dont think so... i almost lost Trevor today and i WONT lose him... i love him way too much... i just have to get out of here...
I CANT WAIT TIL IM 18!!!
XoXo,
Kristen
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i cant stand my mom sometimes... it's like she wants to me to live a horrible life... she TRYS to get me jealous about the Crystal/Karen thing and when i tell her to stop b/c it wont work she says im stupid and im gonna end up getting hurt... and then she bitches at me for NO reason ALL the time... like right now she wants on the computer and im not going "fast enough" for her so shes callin me a bitch... great parenting huh?!... AHHH! i wanna scream at her so bad... i just want to tell her to leave me the hell alone and not talk to me... but if i did id be "grounded"... sure maybe shes under stress from work and shit but she doesnt have to make us feel that way too... if she doesnt leave me the hell alone im gonna break down and cry just like i have every other night this week... why does she have to make my life a living hell every single day?! AHHHH! i just wanna scream...
like i told tarryn in her note today... "sometimes i just want out of this life... i have cried myself to sleep every night for the past week and i fight with my mom all the time... sometimes i think its not worth it"... but i guess if i can wake up to being with Trevor and my friends and stuff every day then it is... no matter how much i hate my mom... well ok maybe i dont hate her... but i very strongly dislike her at the moment...
and now that i think about it the whole thing with Trevor was basically caused by her putting all these crazy thoughts in my head... thats one thing me and my dad get along about he told me i had no reason to be jealous... and i wasnt until i came home and my mom started saying shit... and now shes trying to do it again?!... no i dont think so... i almost lost Trevor today and i WONT lose him... i love him way too much... i just have to get out of here...
I CANT WAIT TIL IM 18!!!
XoXo,
Kristen
PLEASE COMMENT