gotta look on the brightside
yeah so i've been pretty pissed off and very hurt lately...but i should be looking at the positives in my life. i've got a wonderful family behind me. they're supportive, understanding, and while i may have some restrictions, i've got to admit, they're wonderful. my FAMILY...blood. i trust my family, and after every screw up, we're still around for each other. and my relatives...awesome. caroline is the best cousin i could ask for. we're the only girls in the family, i mean, c'mon!!! she's the first one to go greek! lol! ah...greeks. so maybe i've been disappointed by a couple of my closest friends, but not completely screwed over. it's not as if they've done an extremely horrible things. it's not as if i'm going to stop hanging out with them. i mean, i've still got my twin who was so strong this past year. when a lot of girls turned on her because she and heather were on the outs, she still stayed. i'm not going to pretend as if i didn't know about them fighting..hello...i'm the other lil...i can obviously tell that there were some definate awkward moments between the two. and i knew on some level that celia resented me a little bit. even if i hadn't read that one email, it was still obvious. yet she still talked to me...still tried to build a positive twin relationship. which must've been hard for her. for that i'm grateful. i have ursula...who even tho she's alum, just cracks me up! her and her lil! aww! hehe! she's so nice! hey, i put her down as an option for my big...so ya. there are the girls that i'm not close to, and we don't really hang out outside of the sorority, but they're awesome.
and of course last...but most certainly NOT least are the two girls who have NEVER let me down. they even get their own paragraph in this livejournal enrty. in the time that i've known them, these two top the cake. they're the reason why i still have a glimmer of hope for friends. they are a couple of the best girls i could ever be blessed with. i'm thankful we're friends, and i'm so thankful that we've become so much closer recently. yes, i'm talking about stephanie and amanda! my fill ins! these two girls deserve beta phi and they are my pink roses. stephanie as my fill in big sis...and academics, she's wonderful. ever since delphia semester, i've gone to her about chi delt worries. anything i've had a question about, i've asked her, and if she didn't know it, she'd ask beamer for me. she's been supportive of me since the first time we talked. when second semester rolled around, i started including my issues that went beyond chi delta world and trusted her with so much more. she's a wonderful friend. when torn by the email celia wrote heather, i went to her. when anguished over the letter from sac state, i knew, i KNEW i had to talk to her. not just because she's on academics, but because she would know what to do. and if the situation ever again rises where someone likes the guy i like, and he likes her back, i hope that they would have half the consideration that she showed. and amanda...my g-big! what what! hehe! ahhh, we've had so many great times! i've always told her my opinions of the sorority, and we've spent countless hours talking about them. she was also one of the people i just had to talk to when it came to my letter. and we have our hardcore conversations. i even indulged her with my past and my inability to trust well. she was the first person in our pledge class that i talked to! and she sent me a card the other day, which was so sweet and truly made my day so much better. even tho she's not technically my grand big, she's the one i see as my true grand big. she encompasses everything a gbig stands for. she's wonderful. they're both wonderful. i wish i could have more friends like them, but i'm lucky to have two wonderful friends. they're special, and i won't ever take them for granted. they're the ones i can see us all getting together 10 years from now to have lunch (like i saw two pledge sisters from 98 doing). they're my fill ins, and they're the BEST!!!
and of course last...but most certainly NOT least are the two girls who have NEVER let me down. they even get their own paragraph in this livejournal enrty. in the time that i've known them, these two top the cake. they're the reason why i still have a glimmer of hope for friends. they are a couple of the best girls i could ever be blessed with. i'm thankful we're friends, and i'm so thankful that we've become so much closer recently. yes, i'm talking about stephanie and amanda! my fill ins! these two girls deserve beta phi and they are my pink roses. stephanie as my fill in big sis...and academics, she's wonderful. ever since delphia semester, i've gone to her about chi delt worries. anything i've had a question about, i've asked her, and if she didn't know it, she'd ask beamer for me. she's been supportive of me since the first time we talked. when second semester rolled around, i started including my issues that went beyond chi delta world and trusted her with so much more. she's a wonderful friend. when torn by the email celia wrote heather, i went to her. when anguished over the letter from sac state, i knew, i KNEW i had to talk to her. not just because she's on academics, but because she would know what to do. and if the situation ever again rises where someone likes the guy i like, and he likes her back, i hope that they would have half the consideration that she showed. and amanda...my g-big! what what! hehe! ahhh, we've had so many great times! i've always told her my opinions of the sorority, and we've spent countless hours talking about them. she was also one of the people i just had to talk to when it came to my letter. and we have our hardcore conversations. i even indulged her with my past and my inability to trust well. she was the first person in our pledge class that i talked to! and she sent me a card the other day, which was so sweet and truly made my day so much better. even tho she's not technically my grand big, she's the one i see as my true grand big. she encompasses everything a gbig stands for. she's wonderful. they're both wonderful. i wish i could have more friends like them, but i'm lucky to have two wonderful friends. they're special, and i won't ever take them for granted. they're the ones i can see us all getting together 10 years from now to have lunch (like i saw two pledge sisters from 98 doing). they're my fill ins, and they're the BEST!!!