why does everyone want to lie to protect me
where to begin. well i had a KICK ASS birthday!! Friday i went at midnight to the grand with tim and shelly and turned 2 dollars into 20 and drank about $50 worth of drinks for FREE!! yay! oh and i smoked a joint with some random middle aged man on the balcony. he was sleezy....but it was good pot. :) sat. i got 9 INCHES cut off my head...its not ass pretty as long hair but it feels really light and fluffy. then i went to dinner at this KICK ASS buffet in slidel with all you can eat fresh sushi. IT WAS AWSOME! i ate like 12 plates...i thought i was gonna ralph! speaking of ralph, i had hoped ginny would be back in town this weekend but alas...i was told false information and dared to hope. well, me and erica teased cody (a 12 y/o with a huge crush on me) by flirting with him and making him look really cool infront of his friend. then we sat on mr evil's car and were yelled at. we didn't get to my house until after almost everyone was already there for DRUNK FEST 2003 (which actually had a very little amount of drinkng going on...) however i think Dustin, Steven, and Tilly drank enough for about 10 people. Adam brought his turn tables and jeffy d spun a few sets. now that i look back i wish i had danced more, but i'm sure this won't be the only party where i have a profesional dj, as adam is getting bad ass and if justin had tables to practice he would be too. sean came which was awsome cause i hadn't seen him in like forever. he gave me a cool batman card that i broke so i could wear the batman thingy on my head all night. he tried to leave early but i went back in time and made him lock his keys in his car so that he couldn't leave. :) it was foiled however by justin, tilley, and adams car theft skills. hoodlums! i had a bunch of fun but in 3 days i've now had less than 6 hours of sleep.
in other news, my dad called me sunday to inform me that a majority of what i was told and believed about my preadoption days was false. i won't go into it all but the biggest thing was that the man on my birth certificet (sp? i could look it up but i'm lazy...it is 8:30 in the fucking morning) is not my father. meaning connor, ryan and i don't share haskal as a dad. my father was someone she met at a newyears party after a separation with haskal and she just used his name on my bc for insurance perposes. it seems that i am like the only person in our family that didn't know this...which sucks as i'm the one it effects. they were worried i'd freak out or something. i don't understand the big deal however. its not like i'm just now finding out i'm adopted. it is just changing from one name and picture to another that happends to look more like me. this does mean guys....I'M NOT ESKIMO!! infact his name was lauren spenser and he was quite cocasion. the the mystrey of the yellow skin when i have a tan is still a mystery. Lauren is where i got my childhood blond hair and is the reason i'm only 5'0 when connor and ryan are both tall like my mom. its all kind of a shock and i'm sure after i think about it i'll have questions for mary bean (my mom's version of erica) but it isn't devastating like dad and connor seemed to think it would be. i'm a lil sad that we aren't fully blood related since they are all i have, but having grown up with 8 kids in the house all his hers and mine it dosn't change things. blood dosn't mean shit...well except for shelia but she's got issues so i'll forgive her and pity her. the saddest thing for me however was finding out my mom was married 3 times all of which she devorsed do to abuse or cheating or hurting her kids or excessive drug use ect. and then also at least 2 relationships that didn't end in marriage but didn't end well. one of which (bj) apparently has a restaining order from me and my brothers to this day. my mom had it so hard and although robert q glass is kinda a dick...and a cheater...(not on her that i know but every other freaking wife) he really did save her and i'm very glad he met her. ok well this update is more like one giant rambling pile of words. i'm sure you english majors are pained by my grammer and spelling... BUT I DON'T CARE. :) this is my journal...its informal...its just friends reading it...and ya'll love me even if i do write like a 10 y/o.
ok but now i must get food as its been a loooooooong time since food has been put in my stomach. i ment to get some last night but i forgot. :(
in other news, my dad called me sunday to inform me that a majority of what i was told and believed about my preadoption days was false. i won't go into it all but the biggest thing was that the man on my birth certificet (sp? i could look it up but i'm lazy...it is 8:30 in the fucking morning) is not my father. meaning connor, ryan and i don't share haskal as a dad. my father was someone she met at a newyears party after a separation with haskal and she just used his name on my bc for insurance perposes. it seems that i am like the only person in our family that didn't know this...which sucks as i'm the one it effects. they were worried i'd freak out or something. i don't understand the big deal however. its not like i'm just now finding out i'm adopted. it is just changing from one name and picture to another that happends to look more like me. this does mean guys....I'M NOT ESKIMO!! infact his name was lauren spenser and he was quite cocasion. the the mystrey of the yellow skin when i have a tan is still a mystery. Lauren is where i got my childhood blond hair and is the reason i'm only 5'0 when connor and ryan are both tall like my mom. its all kind of a shock and i'm sure after i think about it i'll have questions for mary bean (my mom's version of erica) but it isn't devastating like dad and connor seemed to think it would be. i'm a lil sad that we aren't fully blood related since they are all i have, but having grown up with 8 kids in the house all his hers and mine it dosn't change things. blood dosn't mean shit...well except for shelia but she's got issues so i'll forgive her and pity her. the saddest thing for me however was finding out my mom was married 3 times all of which she devorsed do to abuse or cheating or hurting her kids or excessive drug use ect. and then also at least 2 relationships that didn't end in marriage but didn't end well. one of which (bj) apparently has a restaining order from me and my brothers to this day. my mom had it so hard and although robert q glass is kinda a dick...and a cheater...(not on her that i know but every other freaking wife) he really did save her and i'm very glad he met her. ok well this update is more like one giant rambling pile of words. i'm sure you english majors are pained by my grammer and spelling... BUT I DON'T CARE. :) this is my journal...its informal...its just friends reading it...and ya'll love me even if i do write like a 10 y/o.
ok but now i must get food as its been a loooooooong time since food has been put in my stomach. i ment to get some last night but i forgot. :(