sick
This should be easier than it is. Get some fn self-control. Im not around anyone ALL day long, I dont even have anyone close enough to notice if Ive lost weight here. fuck. and yet i give in to all that sick food and find myself heaving over the toilet. sick.
tomorrow is that start of something great. a fast. hah. okay so i read in this magazine that refined sugar is as addictive as nicotine and heroin. wow. so im giving it up. for good this time. im sick of not making a change.
on the lighter side. i bought a scale the other day and loads of laxitives. i was shocked at how cheap they are in this country. my god. hah i should go lay down even though i know i wont sleep for a long time. last night i even got up and raided the kitchen. sick. luckly it was mostly just fruit and special k, but it even shocked me that i would get out of bed to eat when i hadnt ate barley anything all day when i was around food. yuck.
i hope you beautiful ladies are doing better than i am. think thin. good luck
tomorrow is that start of something great. a fast. hah. okay so i read in this magazine that refined sugar is as addictive as nicotine and heroin. wow. so im giving it up. for good this time. im sick of not making a change.
on the lighter side. i bought a scale the other day and loads of laxitives. i was shocked at how cheap they are in this country. my god. hah i should go lay down even though i know i wont sleep for a long time. last night i even got up and raided the kitchen. sick. luckly it was mostly just fruit and special k, but it even shocked me that i would get out of bed to eat when i hadnt ate barley anything all day when i was around food. yuck.
i hope you beautiful ladies are doing better than i am. think thin. good luck