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[nozomi_noir]

This poem took a lot out of me. But I needed it.

A voice in my head keeps telling me this is a mistake
My legs have the relentless urge to run until I find you
My eager heart keeps trying to leap out of my chest
But I don’t even deserve to search for you
Since you’ve made yourself impossible to reach

And now I’m in love with a stranger
Because I don’t recognize a world
Where I may not even matter to you anymore
Will it matter if I say I love you?
Will it ever matter again?

What if I said I would take you as you are?
Would you ever believe me?
What if we were meant to become so damaged and broken
In order to love each other better?
What if we’re supposed to heal each other?
What if nothing else mattered?
Nothing but us

I’m tired of waiting for my turn
Because god damnit I know you’re my soul mate
And I will wait till the earth ends to prove it to you
To prove that no one could ever love you more than me
That no one knows you like I do
That no one forgives your mistakes like I do
That no one sees through you like I do
No one appreciates your smile like I do
And my arms are always wide open
Waiting for my chance to show you

And if we do cross paths on this earth again
I hope I recognize that heart
I hope that smile is still sweet
Even if it’s not meant for me

Nozomi