feeling better today
hi people I am feeling so much better today.I am not sure why but I feel a bit of releif.I went shopping last night with my guy Romie and we had such a good time.He still dos dumb stuff he is still looking at other women with me at his side i just look at him with a puzzled look.he sang to me last night he is so cute when he dos it.but could all this just be a motive for what ever else he is doing.i know i sound paranoid but i can't help it.he dos stuff to make me beleive he can not be trusted .he said he did not date much growing up and women was'nt realy attracted to him.so I beleive he looks better now and he is defintly build better now.I beleive he loves me but he gets to self involved and i think he forgets i am there.he isn't stuck on him self it isn't anything like that it is a new found beuty i guess.i have never felt ensecure with my self because i am a cutey.but latley i am feeling old and well just ugly.He makes me feel i am not enough for him.he dosent talk much so he dosent say romantic things to me or complement me when i dress up for him or put on something sexy.I love Romie but i think I need more out of life i guess i need passion and romance and affection.i have said these things to him but i don't think he knows what they mean.some times he is like that but that is after he has drank alot.so what dos that say...well i will close for now