i love to rock and roll!
so, i haven't updated in quite sometime. overall, im doing good. stephanie and i hitched a ride to san diego for spring break, and had a skateboard each, a 40 lb. backpack each, and just enough money for booze and food. we slept in random places, includung up in the trees, and in a construction site on the beach. it was freezing. we got awesome tans though. the whole trip was more of a survival trip than a vacation. i still havent gotten a job, but im working on it. i recently had a moment of clarity, as alcoholics would call it, partially from reading this book called "choosing happiness". i know, i know, im a putz. however, the book hust reminded me of a lot of things and mantras id somewhat forgotten. ive been pretty lonely in terms of guys, but ive come to this realization that ive thought before, but that i truly believe now, and its the fact that you cant be with someone until your content on your own. the whole notion is sort of a paradox in itself, though true. im really just trying to get my life in order these days. its a good feeling, though, it takes patience, because i cant get everything done in a hurry. the whole process takes time. not to mention the fact that ive been sleeping on really late lately, because i havent been sleeping all that well. mthe past couple of nights my mind just races as i try to fall asleep. ive also decided im going to write a screen-play. stephanie and i are thinking about starting a rock band in which shell be the back-up singer and play guitar and i will sing.