so, i wrote this song, not too long ago, but not like yesterday or anything. i really like it, feedback ( Read more... )

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up ( Read more... )

i need my friends. that's all. all of you guys too. some of you i see quite often, other's a lot still, and some not too much. without you guys, i'd be nothing. thank you.
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yes, there's an explanation behind this, and there's a few people who will actually get the explanation if they ask me about it.

forget it, it's not like it matters anyway, right? i mean, if it was really cared about, it would matter? but it's not, so it doesn't. it just needs to be voiced, but there's no one to hear it. well, there is, but they don't want to, or they can't, one of those two. all that is known is that it needs to matter.

yeah, so i almost died twice recently. or at least, that's how it felt. i've been to the hospital twice in the last two or so weeks for really really bad panic attacks. so what does this mean? it means that i am overly stressed lately, and i need to reduce that. how do i do that? with the help of my friends. i know most of you guys don't ( Read more... )

so, yeah, i know i always say i'm gonna update this thing more often, but chances are i won't ( Read more... )

last night, i was having severe chest pains and trouble breathing. yes, i was scared, but i tried to ignore it. "it's nothing, it'll go away" i said to myself. but thanks to someone who i owe more than just thanks to, i was convinced to be taken to the hospital, so that's where i went. an ekg was done, heart monitors, pulse monitors, blood ( Read more... )

there is an entry between this one and the last one you'll see(the question about life). it was written in reaction to something that happened tonight. if you have interest in seeing it, get in touch with me and i may show it to you.

life's a funny thing, isn't it?

you guys don't even know, and to tell you the truth, i doubt pretty much any of you fucking care.