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I feel a little out of my mind lately. I’ve been having a lot of emotional and psychological trauma lately. I don’t know if I’d call it trauma, but it’s definitely been a stressful couple of weeks. I had PMS for some of it but it was really bad. I had another bad anxiety attack. I’m glad and yet not that Michael was there for it. I don’t want anyone to see me like that. I was frantically thinking about a bunch of different things. I’ve had the hardest time trying to go to sleep lately. I can’t sleep without thoughts racing through my mind. It’s difficult to find a comfortable spot to sleep in my bed. I toss and turn. Eventually I get to sleep, but it’s just not a good feeling. I almost dread going to sleep because it’s just something that causes me more pain now. There’s nothing to distract me from all the thoughts that go through my mind. They are so random too. They run the gamete of different things.
I went to the doctor about this stuff and he upped my dosage of my anti-anxiety/anti-depression medication. I am hoping this helps somewhat. I know I need to settle a lot of these things going on in my mind. It’s really depressing that I have so much that I feel like I can’t fathom all that I have in front of me. Bills atop of work and trouble at dance. I just can’t take it all. I’ve worked three jobs and went to school at the same time and I am having more trouble now. It’s just weird. I need to clear my head.