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The last couple days have been a glimpse into something that I haven't felt into a long time. It seems like nothing can take me down. However, thoughts of the pain I've felt and dealt with clouds my concentration. I want to forget, but it pains me to leave him as a distant memory. Some much of myself was given to him. It really was something that left a lasting effect on me. Someone once told me that it's okay to feel this way, that losing love is the most difficult thing to deal with. It's like a war that I was never destined to win. It's so wicked.
The last couple days have been nice. Last night, was something that I longed for. Speaking to another human being that understands and gets me is very nice. It's nice to connect with someone where you can talk for hours. It's nice that someone wants to hear about everything that you have to offer as a person. It's been a long time since someone just listened to me unconditionally. It's spellbounding.
I've been a bit cyptic about this thing going on in my life. I really don't want to jinx it or move too fast. it's not something that's worth throwing away. He knows who his is and I know him too. It's not something that the entire world needs to know, just yet. It's been going great. We complement eachother well. He's a musican and sang for me on a number of occasions. Even asked me to go to a Jack's Mannequin concert with him with a song. We have similar taste in music. And, the best part about it is that we both have been through something completely drastic concerning our physical presence. That makes me feel like there's so much we know about eachother already with even knowing it.
I'm just not sure about giving myself away yet. He knows this. He knows I am being cautious and cyptic. He seems to be okay with it. It's weird how strangely almost perfect he is.
The last couple days have been nice. Last night, was something that I longed for. Speaking to another human being that understands and gets me is very nice. It's nice to connect with someone where you can talk for hours. It's nice that someone wants to hear about everything that you have to offer as a person. It's been a long time since someone just listened to me unconditionally. It's spellbounding.
I've been a bit cyptic about this thing going on in my life. I really don't want to jinx it or move too fast. it's not something that's worth throwing away. He knows who his is and I know him too. It's not something that the entire world needs to know, just yet. It's been going great. We complement eachother well. He's a musican and sang for me on a number of occasions. Even asked me to go to a Jack's Mannequin concert with him with a song. We have similar taste in music. And, the best part about it is that we both have been through something completely drastic concerning our physical presence. That makes me feel like there's so much we know about eachother already with even knowing it.
I'm just not sure about giving myself away yet. He knows this. He knows I am being cautious and cyptic. He seems to be okay with it. It's weird how strangely almost perfect he is.