I think I'm losing my identity
I do. I don't think I know who I am anymore. And it's scary. It's so scary because I don't know myself, and no one is there to understand or to help me.
Yes, my friends are there, but each are considering a different aspect of me so it's difficult to combine all of their impressions.
It's not the same as having "the serious me" and "the goofy me" etc, which I've always had, it's almost like I'm different people. Alright, I'm not different people, but the way various people perceive me definitely is.
Don't believe me? Alright, let's go through them:
-Maria: Works as a Face. Is the little one (in height) and the young one.
-Maria: Goes to Stonehill. Hurricane kid. Works at Disney. Kid from Florida. Has no belongings.
-Mima: Outgoing and a little crazy. The same kid since high school (where she apparently went from introvert to super outgoing). Theatre/choir/IB
I guess that's it, but what's getting mixed in it is what am I going to do in the future? I know, no one knows what the future holds. But I'm sure it's hard to imagine not having some semblance of the future. Am I right? If you think about it, you do have a vague idea about the future, right? Like you know you're staying at FSU in that dorm with that roommate, or you know exactly what classes you have to keep taking to fulfill your Business major. You know what city you're going to live in and where you're going to drive/fly after Winter break. You know the paths where your major is going to take you.
What do I have to go on in regards to the future? One person's word and the close-minded advice of others? The biased caring of a few more?
Sorry for the rant. I just don't know who I am anymore.
Yes, my friends are there, but each are considering a different aspect of me so it's difficult to combine all of their impressions.
It's not the same as having "the serious me" and "the goofy me" etc, which I've always had, it's almost like I'm different people. Alright, I'm not different people, but the way various people perceive me definitely is.
Don't believe me? Alright, let's go through them:
-Maria: Works as a Face. Is the little one (in height) and the young one.
-Maria: Goes to Stonehill. Hurricane kid. Works at Disney. Kid from Florida. Has no belongings.
-Mima: Outgoing and a little crazy. The same kid since high school (where she apparently went from introvert to super outgoing). Theatre/choir/IB
I guess that's it, but what's getting mixed in it is what am I going to do in the future? I know, no one knows what the future holds. But I'm sure it's hard to imagine not having some semblance of the future. Am I right? If you think about it, you do have a vague idea about the future, right? Like you know you're staying at FSU in that dorm with that roommate, or you know exactly what classes you have to keep taking to fulfill your Business major. You know what city you're going to live in and where you're going to drive/fly after Winter break. You know the paths where your major is going to take you.
What do I have to go on in regards to the future? One person's word and the close-minded advice of others? The biased caring of a few more?
Sorry for the rant. I just don't know who I am anymore.