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[notleila]

im sick of complaining all the time. have you noticed how much i complain? my life isn't actually that bad, compared to some peoples. im just a bit bored. so im going to start doing things that make me happy and try not to worry about anyone else until i am completely content or else ill continue on with this bullshit martyr attitude forever and all you will read about in my livejournal is how horrible i feel. no one else can take care of me, so i better start or else ill die of a heart attack in my mid twenties.

my five day vacation was so lame and i cried a lot. now, at work, i am oddly refreshed. i have a new outlook. things are going to be different.