Jun 12, 2009 10:39
Lately I've had the recurring concern that I've been wasting my time in Desai. After all, what am I but a high school student with no paranormal abilities or exceptional talents? Contributing to fighting demons and unraveling conspiracies is a childish fantasy that cannot possiubly be fulfilled by an ordinary human being, if I look at it realistically, and while vacationing here avoids the inconvenient aggravations of home, I do have responsibilities and tasks to accomplish there; things more significant than interning at a news station and having delusions of detective ability. These frustrations and musings had grown to the point that I was preparing to purchase my return ticket to Japan. Why remain here?
All my questions on that score were answered unexpectedly when I looked outside last night.
I may never understand the phenomena that this city produces, but when it can restore a cynic's sense of wonder, there is certainly sonething to be said for extending my stay.