Loose Wiring
So here I am again! I'm not exactly keeping up with the "more frequent" journaling plan, but that's all the more reason I should write now, I guess. Um, to briefly catch up, I did have my appointment with the endocrinologist finally, and found out that although E was in the normal range, my T was running really high. He increased my estradiol and wants another blood test in a couple of months. Also, endured another laser session.
I've told Joanne before that although it can seem like my interests can wax and wane, it always seems like I come back around to things eventually. Sometimes it does feel like a negative trait and I can envy the way her interests seem to stay more constant, because when I do get back 'into' something I can often feel the need to catch up on what I'd missed, like I regret getting 'out' in the first place. What can I say, though, I seem to be the distractable sort. (Oooh, shiny!)
The point to all the generality: Jo and I were watching an episode of The Big Bang Theory the other night, where Leonard was going to sell off his toy collection in an effort to "grow up" and be more compatible with Penny, but ended up not going through with it at the end of the show. Somehow my brain made the connection from that to my Super Sentai* collection that has been sitting in the workroom that I've been talking around getting rid of, and apparently that was all it took to get me interested in it again. ^_^;;
Joanne is being very supportive; I showed her the toys from Magiranger and Boukenger, and she agreed they were kind of neat, especially in the way that she could appreciate the engineering that must go into them. She even sat through an episode of subtitled Sentai with me (we watched Boukenger Task 1) and seemed open to doing it again, which is way more than I ever had before. And, she even recognized the robot {Daibouken} as being the same as the toy I'd shown her earlier in the week! And she told me I can have the huge lighted bookcase in the game room for displaying things. :)
Related thoughts I am still pondering:
--Why do I feel so guilty about it? Do I feel like I don't deserve the toys? Or do I feel like I don't deserve for Jo to be understanding of some of my "weird" interests? Or, maybe I am worried that I will overdo it, to where she will change her mind later and regret indulging me?
--And, why am I excited about Sentai again in the first place? Maybe I never really stopped being interested... I think I mainly stopped collecting for financial reasons (especially once I lost my job), and I stopped watching to keep myself from being tempted to collect. But still, why now? Does it mean I am feeling safer? Does it mean I am happier? Both?
*: for those who don't know what I'm talking about, the Super Sentai Series is the Japanese TV show that the US "Power Rangers" show is (loosely) based on. It is in its 35th season this year!
I've told Joanne before that although it can seem like my interests can wax and wane, it always seems like I come back around to things eventually. Sometimes it does feel like a negative trait and I can envy the way her interests seem to stay more constant, because when I do get back 'into' something I can often feel the need to catch up on what I'd missed, like I regret getting 'out' in the first place. What can I say, though, I seem to be the distractable sort. (Oooh, shiny!)
The point to all the generality: Jo and I were watching an episode of The Big Bang Theory the other night, where Leonard was going to sell off his toy collection in an effort to "grow up" and be more compatible with Penny, but ended up not going through with it at the end of the show. Somehow my brain made the connection from that to my Super Sentai* collection that has been sitting in the workroom that I've been talking around getting rid of, and apparently that was all it took to get me interested in it again. ^_^;;
Joanne is being very supportive; I showed her the toys from Magiranger and Boukenger, and she agreed they were kind of neat, especially in the way that she could appreciate the engineering that must go into them. She even sat through an episode of subtitled Sentai with me (we watched Boukenger Task 1) and seemed open to doing it again, which is way more than I ever had before. And, she even recognized the robot {Daibouken} as being the same as the toy I'd shown her earlier in the week! And she told me I can have the huge lighted bookcase in the game room for displaying things. :)
Related thoughts I am still pondering:
--Why do I feel so guilty about it? Do I feel like I don't deserve the toys? Or do I feel like I don't deserve for Jo to be understanding of some of my "weird" interests? Or, maybe I am worried that I will overdo it, to where she will change her mind later and regret indulging me?
--And, why am I excited about Sentai again in the first place? Maybe I never really stopped being interested... I think I mainly stopped collecting for financial reasons (especially once I lost my job), and I stopped watching to keep myself from being tempted to collect. But still, why now? Does it mean I am feeling safer? Does it mean I am happier? Both?
*: for those who don't know what I'm talking about, the Super Sentai Series is the Japanese TV show that the US "Power Rangers" show is (loosely) based on. It is in its 35th season this year!