unhealthy
my relationship with my mother is unhealthy, simply put. tonight i tried to talk to her about somethings that have been worrying me and i thought she might be supportive but alas she only made me feel worse. i'm starting to realize that maybe it's not about trying to convince her to slow down and be on my level for a while but rather start to truly accept my mother for the imperfect person she is. we all have our flaws, some more serious than others. my mother's flaw is that she has a hard time not getting anxious about me. when i tell her something that is not good she panics. this used to mean that i couldn't tell her anything but now i realize i just have to calm her. i can tell her anything i want but i need to be sympathetic to her needs. she is concerned, i know it is only because she wants the utmost best for me.
but in the long run this is a really sad thing for me. i have a mother who cares so much but at the same time she isn't able to be there for me very much emotionally because it is very hard for her. this doesn't really seem to make sense but it is simply the way it is. i love my mom, but somtimes i wish we were closer and i could share my true feelings about whatever i needed to share with her. oh well, its just too bad i guess.
but in the long run this is a really sad thing for me. i have a mother who cares so much but at the same time she isn't able to be there for me very much emotionally because it is very hard for her. this doesn't really seem to make sense but it is simply the way it is. i love my mom, but somtimes i wish we were closer and i could share my true feelings about whatever i needed to share with her. oh well, its just too bad i guess.