torn between 2 lives...
everything has changed...and going to change drastically.
These feelings I'm having are very strange...scary almost.
I can't get him outta my head...
I feel like I'm slowly being pulled each way, back and forth...from one feeling to another. One person to another...
He seems so perfect...a country boy...
Is it normal to feel this way?
I'm going crazy...
30lbs now lost...i can finally see my hip-bones again.
This Ana is doin something to my brain again...I read about this...
Its driving me insane.
I hate to love her, but love to hate her...
ugh. how my life must be so complicated...
And drinking heavily...not like me. somehow its the only way to try and escape these feelings that won't leave me alone.
I got today off...gonna go get my nails fixed...dyed my hair this morning. Also going shopping and then to the forest to take hunter for a walk with john.
I hope I see him today...
Am I being obsessvive? Is this a just a crush...or am I really falling?
I've improoved, since this time last year I had cuts on my arms and legs, and was sitting in a hospital surrounded by nurses and other depressive maniacs...learning "how-to-DEAL" with it.
Anyway...I should go.
I wanna punch that stupid chinese woman who butchered my nails...
ugh
P.S My celly is back up and running...for good this time. lol
289-264-7322
These feelings I'm having are very strange...scary almost.
I can't get him outta my head...
I feel like I'm slowly being pulled each way, back and forth...from one feeling to another. One person to another...
He seems so perfect...a country boy...
Is it normal to feel this way?
I'm going crazy...
30lbs now lost...i can finally see my hip-bones again.
This Ana is doin something to my brain again...I read about this...
Its driving me insane.
I hate to love her, but love to hate her...
ugh. how my life must be so complicated...
And drinking heavily...not like me. somehow its the only way to try and escape these feelings that won't leave me alone.
I got today off...gonna go get my nails fixed...dyed my hair this morning. Also going shopping and then to the forest to take hunter for a walk with john.
I hope I see him today...
Am I being obsessvive? Is this a just a crush...or am I really falling?
I've improoved, since this time last year I had cuts on my arms and legs, and was sitting in a hospital surrounded by nurses and other depressive maniacs...learning "how-to-DEAL" with it.
Anyway...I should go.
I wanna punch that stupid chinese woman who butchered my nails...
ugh
P.S My celly is back up and running...for good this time. lol
289-264-7322