...I'm just confused.
"[Maybe it is something to do with being a confused teenager but my life, this life I'm living right now, feels like the beginning of everything and the end of everything...]"
With so much going on right now...and so many thoughts running through my head I'm finding it hard to think. Have you ever known exactly what you want to say to someone…you say it out loud to yourself...and your heart and head are saying the same thing...yet, you still manage to skew the sole purpose of a conversation? This happens to me often, more so now than ever. It’s as though my life relies on the outcome of this particular conversation and yet, I still manage to completely redirect the meaning behind this said conversation. It’s frustrating. Life would be made easier if we as a human race could just speak with our hearts oppose to our heads. Love and feelings over reason, this seems much more logical to me. Damn reason and rational thinking…
Then there is always self doubt. How is one ever truly sure what is in their best interest? How am I as a young adolescent supposed to be qualified enough to make life-altering decisions for myself?
My frustrations with this and just life in general…run much more than skin deep. It’s about the quality of my life and it’s about my own happiness. If I cannot make decisions for myself that suit my individuality than how is another supposed to ever reach me on more than a non-platonic level?
I find myself being at a loss for words. I cannot seem to find the words that express what I am feeling and in turn reflect my inner-workings…
I’m confused, frustrated, and fed up!
I wish I knew the answers to my problems… or at least a solution that fits.