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my gosh i havent had time to be on this machine in days. feels pretty good. i dont think ill spend much time straying from this pattern of abstinence. ive got pages upon pages of flist to read, but i dont feel obligated as i may have before, when i had less to do, less interest than ive got currently for finding something else. or not so much interest, as i always wished i were doing something else when i had been glued to this screen like a zombie, but maybe, finally, some sense of true motivation. its as if ive been collecting bricks all along, merely throwing them into piles and staring at them, and finally ive got some plan in mind for their arraingement.
or so i hope. it might be the weather. its sunny and bright and mild outside. these swings of temperature and the swings of my temperment accordingly give me great reason to blame SAD for my snowy lows (as if i dont have them all year... but D states i am worse this time of year). but the climate outside is about as unpredictable as of late as my state and i am throughout all the seasons.
there's so much i want to do. i have to stop keeping myself.
or so i hope. it might be the weather. its sunny and bright and mild outside. these swings of temperature and the swings of my temperment accordingly give me great reason to blame SAD for my snowy lows (as if i dont have them all year... but D states i am worse this time of year). but the climate outside is about as unpredictable as of late as my state and i am throughout all the seasons.
there's so much i want to do. i have to stop keeping myself.