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I am afraid of one big thing... the thing im the most afraid of is never finding someone that will accept me... i thought i had that. i have gotten an amazing friend out of it if she ever talks to me again... i don't like being open with people because when you let them in they can hurt you and if you don't let them in you cant get hurt... that's how ive always looked at it... i don't wanna sit here and try to realize what i did wrong or why what happened did... ive been told why weather i understand it or not that's all i have to go by... i do know i felt something that i have never felt before... i miss everything about her... will i ever see that girl again? i hope so! i still have hope that she will come back from where ever she is... the reason i started this is because a friend of mine on facebook posted today that he lost someone 2 years ago today... it was his girl friend and i don't know the detail but after a google of her name i found her myspace page and saw that even 2 this day he leaves her comments about how much he loves her and even on her 21st birthday he commented... now i know if anything happened to the girl i mentioned before i would do the same if i could... regardless i will never for get that girl the way she made me feel the way she smiled when she looked at me... i do know that one day i will be gone from here and i want to leave something behind i hope that i would have the same following as she does and i hope i have someone like my friend mike that would send me wall posts or comments w/e about how much they miss me and love me still... all i wanna know is that im missed when im gone... in life and afterlife... i know a few people that miss me and i miss them 2.... these eyes are sore from crying and i fear the only thing that will make them better is her...