May 31, 2006 00:09
It's gone. Completely and totally desimated. My usual reaction to something like this would be to switch into full military alert, start thinking tactically, gather information, make a plan. Instead I'm just wrapped in a ball of growing anxiety. What if someone is attacking the school and we're just too oblivious to be picking it up? It's the same uncomfortable feeling I had when Vivi died. It shades of war, but no one is invading. It's not like back then. This isnt that kind of school. Is it?
They've relocated the students. Suddenly Im finding myself fidgeting more often. I cant seem to sit still my mind keeps wandering. I want to make sure that Irvine is okay. He lost everything. I just want to make sure he's okay. That's all I want. Isn't it?
Who is this figure I keep drawing without a face? I know his face in the back of my head but it makes me sick when I think about it. There's something wrong with me. I need to stop thinking so much.