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I can't recall ever having been more embarrassed to be a Seahawks fan that I am right now. I can't think of a worse loss to a worse team than 34-10 to the Bills. Even though I knew it was coming for a multitude of reasons (we travel East poorly, Matt is hurt, we're missing loads of players at wideout, DL, and the secondary due to injury and suspension), I never imagined we'd lose 34-10. It actually makes me physically ill. It's like losing to a college team or something. THE BILLS HAVE NOT EVEN MADE THE PLAYOFFS THIS DECADE.
Being a Seattle fan was more fun in the 90's. No expectations. No real hopes. I just wanted us to win sometimes. But after being a dominant team for the last few years, I can't tolerate a fall to mediocrity (or awfulocrity) without a Superbowl.
QUICK NOTE: Out of the 4 teams with the longest standing streaks of making the playoffs--The Patriots, the Colts, the Seahawks, and the Giants--the Seahawks are the only one not to "win" a Superbowl in that stretch (well, we DID, but...you know). The breaks my soul into pieces.
I honestly--HONESTLY--was thinking about just stopping watching football after that loss. Forever. I live in this godawful city with its lucky ass team and "historic franchise", and I'm sick of loving my team that can't walk and chew gum at the same time while everyone talks about their 5 Superbowls and their team's friggin' WING in the Hall of Fame. It's so demoralizing. I can't not love the Seahawks or the players. I can't not root for them forever over any other team. But I'm so dejected over their inability to EVER FUCKING DO ANYTHING. I'd rather just quit watching sports. It's like this empty feeling in my chest to know that ONCE AGAIN, we're not going to do anything this year. And we're never going to. We're just one of those franchises whose "best years" are always going to be the string of years where we don't manage to miss the playoffs entirely.
Srsly, me? I have no idea WHY I love the Hawks; I just kind of affixed myself to them while I was growing up. But I am FIERCELY loyal to them beyond anything else. They are my team forever and forever. But FUCK. I wish I had affixed myself to the Patriots or Colts or Cowboys. Or the Lions or Cardinals. At least they never build their fans up.
I left during the third quarter of the early afternoon games today since everything I could watch or care about was a blow out, and headed out to the mall to get some lunch. After that, I headed to work for a bit to hang out with Kara and Laura for a bit since I knew they were both in. When I got there, they were both just starting their lunch, so that was good timing. We BS'ed a good bit in the back and had a good time; I need to try hanging out with them sometime outside of work. Last winter time, they asked me to go snow-tubing with them at Seven Springs or some place, but I did not end up going, but I should have...I can't remember why I didn't/couldn't. My level of shyness is absurdly crazy...they are coworkers that I am friends with, and I can't even find it in me to ask for their numbers to hang out some time. How stupid is that? I can talk to them all day at work, but I can't do that. I think about it, but then...I just can't bring myself to do it.
I have no idea why I am so timid. I can't just talk to girls out in public; I can't ask my friends for their numbers to hang out with them when we are out of work; I can't say hello to either of the cute girls that live in the same apartment as I when I see them coming home and hold the door open for them. WHAT IS THAT? Why is my brain broken? I want to meet new people.
I am really pissed off at one of my closer friends, too. Just....rargh. Not going into it, since....I'm not. I dunno why they're being such a jerk to me and ignoring me.
Oh, hm. Also, my LJ may be going Friends Only in the very near future. I've always thought people who F-O'ed stuff were just full of themselves and self-important (sorry, like, WHOLE FRIENDS LIST), but then I discovered a segment of readers I am less than joyed to have, so I may be having to go the route of keeping this OUT of the public eye. Sigh. I really don't want to, though.
Being a Seattle fan was more fun in the 90's. No expectations. No real hopes. I just wanted us to win sometimes. But after being a dominant team for the last few years, I can't tolerate a fall to mediocrity (or awfulocrity) without a Superbowl.
QUICK NOTE: Out of the 4 teams with the longest standing streaks of making the playoffs--The Patriots, the Colts, the Seahawks, and the Giants--the Seahawks are the only one not to "win" a Superbowl in that stretch (well, we DID, but...you know). The breaks my soul into pieces.
I honestly--HONESTLY--was thinking about just stopping watching football after that loss. Forever. I live in this godawful city with its lucky ass team and "historic franchise", and I'm sick of loving my team that can't walk and chew gum at the same time while everyone talks about their 5 Superbowls and their team's friggin' WING in the Hall of Fame. It's so demoralizing. I can't not love the Seahawks or the players. I can't not root for them forever over any other team. But I'm so dejected over their inability to EVER FUCKING DO ANYTHING. I'd rather just quit watching sports. It's like this empty feeling in my chest to know that ONCE AGAIN, we're not going to do anything this year. And we're never going to. We're just one of those franchises whose "best years" are always going to be the string of years where we don't manage to miss the playoffs entirely.
Srsly, me? I have no idea WHY I love the Hawks; I just kind of affixed myself to them while I was growing up. But I am FIERCELY loyal to them beyond anything else. They are my team forever and forever. But FUCK. I wish I had affixed myself to the Patriots or Colts or Cowboys. Or the Lions or Cardinals. At least they never build their fans up.
I left during the third quarter of the early afternoon games today since everything I could watch or care about was a blow out, and headed out to the mall to get some lunch. After that, I headed to work for a bit to hang out with Kara and Laura for a bit since I knew they were both in. When I got there, they were both just starting their lunch, so that was good timing. We BS'ed a good bit in the back and had a good time; I need to try hanging out with them sometime outside of work. Last winter time, they asked me to go snow-tubing with them at Seven Springs or some place, but I did not end up going, but I should have...I can't remember why I didn't/couldn't. My level of shyness is absurdly crazy...they are coworkers that I am friends with, and I can't even find it in me to ask for their numbers to hang out some time. How stupid is that? I can talk to them all day at work, but I can't do that. I think about it, but then...I just can't bring myself to do it.
I have no idea why I am so timid. I can't just talk to girls out in public; I can't ask my friends for their numbers to hang out with them when we are out of work; I can't say hello to either of the cute girls that live in the same apartment as I when I see them coming home and hold the door open for them. WHAT IS THAT? Why is my brain broken? I want to meet new people.
I am really pissed off at one of my closer friends, too. Just....rargh. Not going into it, since....I'm not. I dunno why they're being such a jerk to me and ignoring me.
Oh, hm. Also, my LJ may be going Friends Only in the very near future. I've always thought people who F-O'ed stuff were just full of themselves and self-important (sorry, like, WHOLE FRIENDS LIST), but then I discovered a segment of readers I am less than joyed to have, so I may be having to go the route of keeping this OUT of the public eye. Sigh. I really don't want to, though.