Some sort of as-yet-unnamed social anxiety disorder
Since I linked my LJ to my notes on Facebook, I've had this terrible anxiety towards posting. I think it's because I now feel like more people will see it, and I will say something stupid and look like an idiot. But I guess the only way to tackle this phobia is to tackle it head on.
On a more serious social anxiety related note, I do wonder sometimes if I have some sort of disorder. Tonight I went to the Stammtisch for exchange students, and after more than 5 people showed up, I just froze. My muscles tightened, I couldn't think of anything to say, and I just became useless. I had to leave really early, because I was just experiencing this extreme fear and trepidation. I don't know what's up with that. It's weird.
So, this whole class thing has not been going so well so far. All of the students I talked to told me being on a waiting list was no big deal, and you'd probably get into the class anyway, so I wasn't worried when I only had a set place in 3 classes and was on a waiting list for 3 others. I've gone to meetings for two of those classes now, and it's abundantly clear I will not be getting into either of them. This leaves me at less than the required number of credits I'm supposed to take. As you can imagine, this is problematic. Hopefully, though, I think I have found some other classes that will fix the problem. Still, it's stressful.
The music project is also kind of stressing me out. I'm overly perfectionistic, and I suddenly feel like the quality of recording has gone way down from when I started, and I can't figure out how to fix it. I suppose I should take what I can get: I'm using a freeware program to record and all my cables and whatnot are jury-rigged. Whatever. I should pass the poor quality off as being "punk rock". Yeah, that's what I'll do.
Waldsee question: Does anyone have the Liederbuch lying around? If so, could I get the lyrics and chords to "Mein Pony kommt"? I have an evil/awesome idea that I want to carry out.
On a more serious social anxiety related note, I do wonder sometimes if I have some sort of disorder. Tonight I went to the Stammtisch for exchange students, and after more than 5 people showed up, I just froze. My muscles tightened, I couldn't think of anything to say, and I just became useless. I had to leave really early, because I was just experiencing this extreme fear and trepidation. I don't know what's up with that. It's weird.
So, this whole class thing has not been going so well so far. All of the students I talked to told me being on a waiting list was no big deal, and you'd probably get into the class anyway, so I wasn't worried when I only had a set place in 3 classes and was on a waiting list for 3 others. I've gone to meetings for two of those classes now, and it's abundantly clear I will not be getting into either of them. This leaves me at less than the required number of credits I'm supposed to take. As you can imagine, this is problematic. Hopefully, though, I think I have found some other classes that will fix the problem. Still, it's stressful.
The music project is also kind of stressing me out. I'm overly perfectionistic, and I suddenly feel like the quality of recording has gone way down from when I started, and I can't figure out how to fix it. I suppose I should take what I can get: I'm using a freeware program to record and all my cables and whatnot are jury-rigged. Whatever. I should pass the poor quality off as being "punk rock". Yeah, that's what I'll do.
Waldsee question: Does anyone have the Liederbuch lying around? If so, could I get the lyrics and chords to "Mein Pony kommt"? I have an evil/awesome idea that I want to carry out.