R.I.P. Christopher Colepaugh and David McDonald
these last couple days have been pure hell for me.
Chris was a man who would always invite people over. always do anything for anyone. always be on his computer or playing with technology. one who ALWAYS had a fuckin smile on his face.
i dont know what happened. he became depressed these last few months, yet still hid it with his beautiful smile, and his wit and charm trying to hang out with people. planning trips to ireland or iceland with people for the future summer, never letting anyone know he was sick.
David was his roommate for 1.5 years.
David was in the local band Adonis. Always rockin out. Ever since i met both of them 5 years ago they were the same people. David has a toddler son. I feel bad for their families.
wednesday night/early thursday morning is when chris finally collapsed. he wrote on myspace.com on his blog at approx 11:37pm...
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Christopher James Colepaugh 1985 - 2006
Current mood: blank
These may be the last words I ever write. There is no place for me in this world. I figured, before I go; I should take out one piece of shit with me. I'm sorry to those who actually cared about me. As for David, if you cared about him, you are a fool. He took advantage of everyone he ever knew. David lied (about everything that might lean things in his favor), cheated (on his baby's momma constantly) and stole (from strangers and friends) at every chance he had. Consider it my parting gift to the world that I removed him before I did myself.
I wish good luck to those who outlive me. This world is going downhill fast and it's up to all of you to try and fix it. Our government is corrupt beyond anything imaginable and the general populace is allowing it to happen, while getting stupider by the second (take a scenic stroll around Wal-Mart and you'll see what I mean). Some will say I'm the weak, some will say I'm crazy... most will fail to understand. For those who do (understand), please don't follow my example. Find something you can do to better this world and follow through. Notice the little things in life that make it all worth while (A colorful sunset, a playful puppy, a partnership in life with a special someone, etc.). And please... be independent in your thinking and actions - there are far too many drones in this world already.
Goodbye everyone,
Christopher James Colepaugh
i guess there was a witness in the other room, no names released.
david was sleeping on the couch while chris was typing up his letter. then chris came and shot david a few times in the body then took his own life right by the side of the couch. i guess a month or so ago is when he purchased the gun, bringing question to some co-workers, yet they figured he was fine. the witness was in the other room the whole time. i wonder how they are doing. i have so many questions to ask. i wish i knew who it was.
the news is making him look like a piece of shit. they are all mourning for david, and nothing about chris. i know it wasnt davids fault, and chris did murder, but atleast give chris some kind of credit. he was a sick human. he needed help. im supposed to go interview with the news about him, giving good points about his life, etc. im scared. everyone will hate me, especially davids friends, but i loved chris. he was a friend. as was david as much as he was a dick to me.
david was my first fooling around partner. chris was my first friend who didnt care what i was like.
first time i hung out with chris i parked my car at the movie theatre, in which i have to drive by every day to work. i cry, every day.
im taking it hard. but matt insists on being with me every second to make sure i am ok. he sees me shed tears and wipes them away for me. i love that boy.
his myspace was based on the song "311 Beyond The Gray Sky lyrics"
It is a gift I know
A moment of bliss that we hold
A firecracker flash of light then on
To the next plane soul remain
Come along if you dare
It's gonna be that you're scared
Lovely life I thank you
For the reason to see the pain through
Light a candle for the dead
The wick is burning returning what we have
It's who we are
We'll reach you if you're beyond the furthest star
Don't give up the fight to stay alive and even if
you have to
Find the reason of another's pain if they lose you
If not for your self then those around who care
like I do
One day you'll see the clear blue
Beyond the Gray Sky
Light a candle...
The wick...
It's who we are...
One day youill see the clear blue
Beyond the Gray Sky
I can't believe you didnit call
What made you want to end it all
Wasn't there something I should have tried
To help you see beyond the gray sky
i wish someone would have realized it was about suicide. and took action.
i cant type about it anymore. too hard.
R.I.P. Chris and David
you will both be missed, dearly
Chris was a man who would always invite people over. always do anything for anyone. always be on his computer or playing with technology. one who ALWAYS had a fuckin smile on his face.
i dont know what happened. he became depressed these last few months, yet still hid it with his beautiful smile, and his wit and charm trying to hang out with people. planning trips to ireland or iceland with people for the future summer, never letting anyone know he was sick.
David was his roommate for 1.5 years.
David was in the local band Adonis. Always rockin out. Ever since i met both of them 5 years ago they were the same people. David has a toddler son. I feel bad for their families.
wednesday night/early thursday morning is when chris finally collapsed. he wrote on myspace.com on his blog at approx 11:37pm...
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Christopher James Colepaugh 1985 - 2006
Current mood: blank
These may be the last words I ever write. There is no place for me in this world. I figured, before I go; I should take out one piece of shit with me. I'm sorry to those who actually cared about me. As for David, if you cared about him, you are a fool. He took advantage of everyone he ever knew. David lied (about everything that might lean things in his favor), cheated (on his baby's momma constantly) and stole (from strangers and friends) at every chance he had. Consider it my parting gift to the world that I removed him before I did myself.
I wish good luck to those who outlive me. This world is going downhill fast and it's up to all of you to try and fix it. Our government is corrupt beyond anything imaginable and the general populace is allowing it to happen, while getting stupider by the second (take a scenic stroll around Wal-Mart and you'll see what I mean). Some will say I'm the weak, some will say I'm crazy... most will fail to understand. For those who do (understand), please don't follow my example. Find something you can do to better this world and follow through. Notice the little things in life that make it all worth while (A colorful sunset, a playful puppy, a partnership in life with a special someone, etc.). And please... be independent in your thinking and actions - there are far too many drones in this world already.
Goodbye everyone,
Christopher James Colepaugh
i guess there was a witness in the other room, no names released.
david was sleeping on the couch while chris was typing up his letter. then chris came and shot david a few times in the body then took his own life right by the side of the couch. i guess a month or so ago is when he purchased the gun, bringing question to some co-workers, yet they figured he was fine. the witness was in the other room the whole time. i wonder how they are doing. i have so many questions to ask. i wish i knew who it was.
the news is making him look like a piece of shit. they are all mourning for david, and nothing about chris. i know it wasnt davids fault, and chris did murder, but atleast give chris some kind of credit. he was a sick human. he needed help. im supposed to go interview with the news about him, giving good points about his life, etc. im scared. everyone will hate me, especially davids friends, but i loved chris. he was a friend. as was david as much as he was a dick to me.
david was my first fooling around partner. chris was my first friend who didnt care what i was like.
first time i hung out with chris i parked my car at the movie theatre, in which i have to drive by every day to work. i cry, every day.
im taking it hard. but matt insists on being with me every second to make sure i am ok. he sees me shed tears and wipes them away for me. i love that boy.
his myspace was based on the song "311 Beyond The Gray Sky lyrics"
It is a gift I know
A moment of bliss that we hold
A firecracker flash of light then on
To the next plane soul remain
Come along if you dare
It's gonna be that you're scared
Lovely life I thank you
For the reason to see the pain through
Light a candle for the dead
The wick is burning returning what we have
It's who we are
We'll reach you if you're beyond the furthest star
Don't give up the fight to stay alive and even if
you have to
Find the reason of another's pain if they lose you
If not for your self then those around who care
like I do
One day you'll see the clear blue
Beyond the Gray Sky
Light a candle...
The wick...
It's who we are...
One day youill see the clear blue
Beyond the Gray Sky
I can't believe you didnit call
What made you want to end it all
Wasn't there something I should have tried
To help you see beyond the gray sky
i wish someone would have realized it was about suicide. and took action.
i cant type about it anymore. too hard.
R.I.P. Chris and David
you will both be missed, dearly