OMG GUYS> ITS LISA
I know i never write in livejournal anymore, but i think i might really start because i need to have a better memory of things, plus i need to get my emo side out of me. My life is crazy now. its crazy in a good way though. but last night was bad.. me and amber snuck out at 1 and didnt get home until (party at jakes house).. it was fun but then we came home and got caught.. man oh man.. it was ugly. but i had a fun time, so whatever, but omg guys.. get this.. "Lisa is grounded".. lmao. are you kidding me. omg.. thats fucking funny as hell. My boy leaves town in like a week, and i dont know if my mom will decide to be a bitch or not and let me see him before he leaves.. she probably will let me, but id cry if she didnt. I am so excited, only 3 more days of finals, and then life is great. I broke away from guy #2, i knew i needed to. I told him that i needed to be with zach and just zach, and that i wasnt being fair because i was in love with him. i think it was a very wise decision, but i must say, it hurts to let go of someone that holds so tightly on to you. I am in love with zach though, so what was i thinking in the first place ever even consiering those options. but yeah, i guess i just got a little caught up in the idea of being happy I just want happiness for myself, and i thought somehow if i did somethign different i could end up on top. but i tried it out, and realized.. im most happy with zach, and thats how things work i guess. i cant wait until summer, i cant wait to have all the timein the world to sit on my ass and do nothing.
I cant wait until i can just sleep in everyday and stay up all night(that has been my schedule since i was like 7).. ask everyone who really knows me.
I love my life right now, i cant even explain to you all how happy i have been... along with everything else i have just been realize how lucky i am to have the friends that i have, and to be where im at. Im so lucky to have my life, and i just find it amazing that i ended up in such a good situation this time.
I do miss alot of people though.
Last night my sister made me cry.. (rachel L you need to read this part, so does rachel b and ashley)
When i got home from sneaking out my sis was like.. look at who you have became.. look at the things you have been getting yourself into.. Drugs, acohol, smoking ciggarettes, sneaking out and getting in cars with guys you dont even know" she was like "did you just forget about all of your REAL friends that actually know who you really are. have you just forgot about them. how come you dont hang out with them anymore. I know that rachel low. would never sneak out with you, and she lives like a block away." then my mom comes in "Lisa, your noting like how you used to be, you used to have little slumber parties at rachel low.'s house with rachel ashley and amanda, and i knwo that they are all good kids and would never do shit like that" "how come you have gotten so out of control, why do you feel liek you have to hang out with "the rebel" kids.. what happened to all of your old friends" ..then my sister "Look at how much you have brought caroline down, you have gotten her to change herself completely into what you are now, what has happened to you"... wow.
I wanted to punch her in the face. both of them.
But i guess thats because in all honesty i know the truth hurts.
But.. what can I say.
I seem to let people down.
I try to cover it up.. but its still inside of me.
Same with suzanne...
I let her down too.
I cant wait until i can just sleep in everyday and stay up all night(that has been my schedule since i was like 7).. ask everyone who really knows me.
I love my life right now, i cant even explain to you all how happy i have been... along with everything else i have just been realize how lucky i am to have the friends that i have, and to be where im at. Im so lucky to have my life, and i just find it amazing that i ended up in such a good situation this time.
I do miss alot of people though.
Last night my sister made me cry.. (rachel L you need to read this part, so does rachel b and ashley)
When i got home from sneaking out my sis was like.. look at who you have became.. look at the things you have been getting yourself into.. Drugs, acohol, smoking ciggarettes, sneaking out and getting in cars with guys you dont even know" she was like "did you just forget about all of your REAL friends that actually know who you really are. have you just forgot about them. how come you dont hang out with them anymore. I know that rachel low. would never sneak out with you, and she lives like a block away." then my mom comes in "Lisa, your noting like how you used to be, you used to have little slumber parties at rachel low.'s house with rachel ashley and amanda, and i knwo that they are all good kids and would never do shit like that" "how come you have gotten so out of control, why do you feel liek you have to hang out with "the rebel" kids.. what happened to all of your old friends" ..then my sister "Look at how much you have brought caroline down, you have gotten her to change herself completely into what you are now, what has happened to you"... wow.
I wanted to punch her in the face. both of them.
But i guess thats because in all honesty i know the truth hurts.
But.. what can I say.
I seem to let people down.
I try to cover it up.. but its still inside of me.
Same with suzanne...
I let her down too.