oh so much
Does anyone like change? I mean really? Is there a body in the world that can handle change the way the majority of us handle... nonchange?
What is new... My grandpa is REALLY losing it now. My aunt set up a visit with Hospice (ie. according to dr.'s he has less than 6mos to live). My cousin Jonathan got married. I pitty the girl, but do hope that it lasts. Divorce bites. Kate has trampled her friendship with Simon which makes like rough for me. She has decided that she likes Paul. For MANY reasons this makes me want to vomit. I knew that... well I refuse to allow myself a pity party.. forget it. So, Shane's brother-in-law could be paralyzed from a terrible accident he had about two weeks ago. Grams almost died the other night when her sugar dropped to 25 (normal range is 80-120). Thankfully A. Dee was there. Mom and Kate are starting to speak again. Jamie got kicked out of her house-- her dad told her not to ever come back. U. Gardie won't speak to A. Dee. So.. that's the bad stuff that I need SOOOOOO much help handling. I'm going crazy. People have problems so much worse than mine and I have the odasity (sp.?) to complain about my measely problems. I really should just get over it. It's not easy though. I just keep trying. I don't know what else to do. I'd love to give up, but what would that mean? What else could I do? I hate visiting my grandparents. All I do when I'm there are errands. The time has passed where I can go and even speak to them about anything. It's gone. All that's left is me doing things for them because I can't stop. I could not visit, then there would be no errands.. but I love them too much. AHHHHHHhhhhh.. Mom has started spending time with Simon and listening to him complain about Kate. So it seems that whatever friend that gets a little bypassed decides to run to our mother. Great. I hate this. Shane has put himself out there again to get run over and knocked down by this "friend" of his that he just got over. So yeah.. hear I go again mopping up his broken heart one more time. I am so sick and tired of all this mess. I haven't even felt like getting on here and typing because I knew I had nothing positive to say.. now i shall force something good into this blog...
I'm working full time hours now. That's good.. money's good. I love working in rehab with Tamra.. she's great and a really good person (few and far between). Um, quartet is making good money and so far there has been minimal drama. I'm playing on the 4th with the Marion Phil. That's exciting. My 5yr old student is doing really well... ok. the end. i'm tired of trying.
Trying not to lose my joy. Needing much much much help. :/
This to shall pass...
It's all good...
...or will be.
What is new... My grandpa is REALLY losing it now. My aunt set up a visit with Hospice (ie. according to dr.'s he has less than 6mos to live). My cousin Jonathan got married. I pitty the girl, but do hope that it lasts. Divorce bites. Kate has trampled her friendship with Simon which makes like rough for me. She has decided that she likes Paul. For MANY reasons this makes me want to vomit. I knew that... well I refuse to allow myself a pity party.. forget it. So, Shane's brother-in-law could be paralyzed from a terrible accident he had about two weeks ago. Grams almost died the other night when her sugar dropped to 25 (normal range is 80-120). Thankfully A. Dee was there. Mom and Kate are starting to speak again. Jamie got kicked out of her house-- her dad told her not to ever come back. U. Gardie won't speak to A. Dee. So.. that's the bad stuff that I need SOOOOOO much help handling. I'm going crazy. People have problems so much worse than mine and I have the odasity (sp.?) to complain about my measely problems. I really should just get over it. It's not easy though. I just keep trying. I don't know what else to do. I'd love to give up, but what would that mean? What else could I do? I hate visiting my grandparents. All I do when I'm there are errands. The time has passed where I can go and even speak to them about anything. It's gone. All that's left is me doing things for them because I can't stop. I could not visit, then there would be no errands.. but I love them too much. AHHHHHHhhhhh.. Mom has started spending time with Simon and listening to him complain about Kate. So it seems that whatever friend that gets a little bypassed decides to run to our mother. Great. I hate this. Shane has put himself out there again to get run over and knocked down by this "friend" of his that he just got over. So yeah.. hear I go again mopping up his broken heart one more time. I am so sick and tired of all this mess. I haven't even felt like getting on here and typing because I knew I had nothing positive to say.. now i shall force something good into this blog...
I'm working full time hours now. That's good.. money's good. I love working in rehab with Tamra.. she's great and a really good person (few and far between). Um, quartet is making good money and so far there has been minimal drama. I'm playing on the 4th with the Marion Phil. That's exciting. My 5yr old student is doing really well... ok. the end. i'm tired of trying.
Trying not to lose my joy. Needing much much much help. :/
This to shall pass...
It's all good...
...or will be.