excision
my away msg right now says, "is there a surgery to remove emotion? ..if so i'll take two." I'm serious. i hate giving a care about so many things. i would love to actually be more like i act-clueless. ah... gr. got some news that didn't make me happy r/t shane. not like i can do anything about it. still so depressing. gotta stand back and observe, silently. should not care so much. its just so hard to do.. so hard not to yell- i know that it would not help AT ALL. it would only make things worse.. but when u see a kid about to walk out in front of a car.. u would yell too. nope, i'll just sit back and watch him get run over.. then run over and try to rescusitate him afterward. seriously breaks my heart. i can't explain the feeling in my chest, sorta like being strangled only not around your neck. terrible pictures in my head.. ahhh...get over it j. get over it. its weird too, because i'm not mad. not mad.. just really crushed.. stupid stupid me.
fiddler is over. sad that pit time is over.. but glad for the extra hours i'll have! next weekend is easter break.. so no classes friday or monday.. HOORAY!
ppl who came to the show: dad, jeremy, mom, kate, debbie, a.dee, uckc, u.gardie, a.kim, same/alex/drew, grams, gramps, simon, susan, paulie, sarah, summer, faith, kevin&family, penny, mom O., mrs. bartley, a. mary, katrina&fiance.. that's all i can think of right now. prof. bray came too.
speaking of her.. wow, my opinion has so changed. i think i mentioned this already, but i am just reitterating it. wow. she's great to me. not a good prof! but an awesome person. yea. great!
i have so much to do! sosososo much! but i think i'll go to bed.. 5hrs and a viola kills the back-among other things. ;)
random other things- talked to sara quite a bit-is always nice. txt from d'nei/chenai. got inducted into sigma theta tau. played for an awesome wedding last weekend at the hostess house (molli fields/dallas?)-it was lavendar, but very short, brunch buffet, traditional, elegant but not too expensive. very nice! also got paid REALLY well ($100e)! that's always a nice perk.
well this is enough for now, i should be able to sleep.
fiddler is over. sad that pit time is over.. but glad for the extra hours i'll have! next weekend is easter break.. so no classes friday or monday.. HOORAY!
ppl who came to the show: dad, jeremy, mom, kate, debbie, a.dee, uckc, u.gardie, a.kim, same/alex/drew, grams, gramps, simon, susan, paulie, sarah, summer, faith, kevin&family, penny, mom O., mrs. bartley, a. mary, katrina&fiance.. that's all i can think of right now. prof. bray came too.
speaking of her.. wow, my opinion has so changed. i think i mentioned this already, but i am just reitterating it. wow. she's great to me. not a good prof! but an awesome person. yea. great!
i have so much to do! sosososo much! but i think i'll go to bed.. 5hrs and a viola kills the back-among other things. ;)
random other things- talked to sara quite a bit-is always nice. txt from d'nei/chenai. got inducted into sigma theta tau. played for an awesome wedding last weekend at the hostess house (molli fields/dallas?)-it was lavendar, but very short, brunch buffet, traditional, elegant but not too expensive. very nice! also got paid REALLY well ($100e)! that's always a nice perk.
well this is enough for now, i should be able to sleep.