My family hates me!!!
No joke! I really think they hate me! Ok so they dont hate me but the dont like me.... I dont like them very much either at the moment... I seriously have to get out of this house...and fast....
Ok so here is what happend....
I woke up today with a huge headache...I think it was a sinus headache or whatever...but it was bad... No one was home so I was laying on the couch and jsut relaxing because of my headache...My mom comes in the door and starts talking really loudly...so I admit..I yelled for her to stop...I didn't mean it rudely...but dude I had a really bad fucking headache...So then she starts to yell at me for yelling at her...and I plug my ears cuz uh duh...Then my grandma starts yelling at me for yelling at my mom...And this is what I said..."I have a fucking headache!" I wasn't cussing at her I was just cussing because my head was throbbing like mad and I couldn't take the yelling.... So after a bit I apologized to my grandma...she said she didn't accept my apology so I just was like ok and I walked away....
Ok then me and my mom went out cuz we had to go handle something...We got back and I was sitting in my room adn my grandpa bangs on my door and comes in... Starts yelling at me...calling me selfish...mean, uncaring....pretty much with out saying the word was calling me a bitch...he just didn't use that word... I was like...most of it was an misunderstanding because they didn't know I had a headache... and I shouldn't have yelled.... But he wouldn't stop going off on me... He got in my face telling me how he was going to slap me if I ever talked like that again...(I said the f word...)...and Ok I dont take well to threats especially when its physical... SO I was getting pretty upset and I yelled back that if he hit me I would call the cops.... Cuz fuck no...I dont care who you are but no one is ever ever ever going to hit me again. My mom comes in and gets between him and me and starts telling him to stop because my little sister is home...Then my grandma comes in and starts saying how I am not worth it and just to leave me alone because I'm not worth it.... So then they all get out of my room...I grap my purse and went out for a smoke to calm down...Now I am typing this....
Ok take a breather....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am so glad that I might have found a place to live...Not a definete yet but it will be in my price range and a friends gonna split the rent with me.... Thank god...but like I said its not positive yet.... SO I dont know whats gonna happen with that.... But anyway...yeah I am so fucking upset right now....
I mean my bio-dad use to threaten me all the time...and he hit me a few times...And I do not take to that well.... I mean really...He had no right to even say it! God dammit! I am so pissed off right now. I dont know what to do...I have just started to calm down....but damn.... I mean damn! I cant handle this shit! I mean I really cant... I got my mom and dad who think that I am going to be fine and I dont think they realize how close I am to about to be living on the streets and frankly I dont think they give a shit! Over a god damn tattoo...Then I got my grandparents continually yelling at me for things and now threatening me.... Fuck fuck it all! Fuck them all! Once I am out I am out and I am never ever coming back..And ya know what else..I wont fucking tell them where I will be living...No fucking way.... I'll contact them but hell no they aint gonna contact me! Fuck no! I cant believe this shit... I mean I know I have been a pain...but when my grandpa started yelling at me...first of all he wasn't there and second of all its not his place!
Fuck I cant write anymore...time to do some damage to my fucking arm....I told ya I cant handle this shit.... Fuck! I wish I had a gun!!!!
Ok so here is what happend....
I woke up today with a huge headache...I think it was a sinus headache or whatever...but it was bad... No one was home so I was laying on the couch and jsut relaxing because of my headache...My mom comes in the door and starts talking really loudly...so I admit..I yelled for her to stop...I didn't mean it rudely...but dude I had a really bad fucking headache...So then she starts to yell at me for yelling at her...and I plug my ears cuz uh duh...Then my grandma starts yelling at me for yelling at my mom...And this is what I said..."I have a fucking headache!" I wasn't cussing at her I was just cussing because my head was throbbing like mad and I couldn't take the yelling.... So after a bit I apologized to my grandma...she said she didn't accept my apology so I just was like ok and I walked away....
Ok then me and my mom went out cuz we had to go handle something...We got back and I was sitting in my room adn my grandpa bangs on my door and comes in... Starts yelling at me...calling me selfish...mean, uncaring....pretty much with out saying the word was calling me a bitch...he just didn't use that word... I was like...most of it was an misunderstanding because they didn't know I had a headache... and I shouldn't have yelled.... But he wouldn't stop going off on me... He got in my face telling me how he was going to slap me if I ever talked like that again...(I said the f word...)...and Ok I dont take well to threats especially when its physical... SO I was getting pretty upset and I yelled back that if he hit me I would call the cops.... Cuz fuck no...I dont care who you are but no one is ever ever ever going to hit me again. My mom comes in and gets between him and me and starts telling him to stop because my little sister is home...Then my grandma comes in and starts saying how I am not worth it and just to leave me alone because I'm not worth it.... So then they all get out of my room...I grap my purse and went out for a smoke to calm down...Now I am typing this....
Ok take a breather....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am so glad that I might have found a place to live...Not a definete yet but it will be in my price range and a friends gonna split the rent with me.... Thank god...but like I said its not positive yet.... SO I dont know whats gonna happen with that.... But anyway...yeah I am so fucking upset right now....
I mean my bio-dad use to threaten me all the time...and he hit me a few times...And I do not take to that well.... I mean really...He had no right to even say it! God dammit! I am so pissed off right now. I dont know what to do...I have just started to calm down....but damn.... I mean damn! I cant handle this shit! I mean I really cant... I got my mom and dad who think that I am going to be fine and I dont think they realize how close I am to about to be living on the streets and frankly I dont think they give a shit! Over a god damn tattoo...Then I got my grandparents continually yelling at me for things and now threatening me.... Fuck fuck it all! Fuck them all! Once I am out I am out and I am never ever coming back..And ya know what else..I wont fucking tell them where I will be living...No fucking way.... I'll contact them but hell no they aint gonna contact me! Fuck no! I cant believe this shit... I mean I know I have been a pain...but when my grandpa started yelling at me...first of all he wasn't there and second of all its not his place!
Fuck I cant write anymore...time to do some damage to my fucking arm....I told ya I cant handle this shit.... Fuck! I wish I had a gun!!!!