Ok yeah so I am posting.....
Oh joy to the world...my life sucks...haha...no not really...well yes really...well actually I do not know... SO anyways... Lovin my relationship with Brady...its going good! Few problems but not about the relationship we both just got problems of our own right now that we are trying to deal with...while still keeping ourselves together.
I have found the joys of coke....a-cola! Haha.... but alas... I can not do it.... No not going to do it! No really I am not no longer no more....no more of that stupid....uh...drink...for me! Haha...
I have found out that one of my best friends is strung out on meth everyday and is losing weight like a hot potato...and she calls me at freaking 3am....Ahhhh... I was like....dude...I soooooooooooo am sleeping right now....what the fuck are you doing! But naturally she is up every night.... I am worried about her.... but I cant worry to much cuz I have to take care of myself right now....once I get myself together then I can help other people out.
Eventhough its hard....expecially since I for one like to help people....I have to remember I can not help anyone until i help myself!
Sucks but its sadly true! I can not help my boyfrined....I can not help my friend....and it just plain sucks...all I can do right now is get my own shit together first.... If I dont and I start helping my friends out....then I will start falling to pieces and in the end...me falling to pieces is soooooooo not going to help anyone out.
Ok I have to go...because my mom wants to have a word with me....haha....I think she has sensed that something is not right with me..... ekkkkk.... scary shit! I dont want to lie to my mom cuz I hate lying...but do I tell her the truth....ekkkk... no way....cant do that....truth is too truthful at the moment..ekkk...oh such a fucking dilema!
I have found the joys of coke....a-cola! Haha.... but alas... I can not do it.... No not going to do it! No really I am not no longer no more....no more of that stupid....uh...drink...for me! Haha...
I have found out that one of my best friends is strung out on meth everyday and is losing weight like a hot potato...and she calls me at freaking 3am....Ahhhh... I was like....dude...I soooooooooooo am sleeping right now....what the fuck are you doing! But naturally she is up every night.... I am worried about her.... but I cant worry to much cuz I have to take care of myself right now....once I get myself together then I can help other people out.
Eventhough its hard....expecially since I for one like to help people....I have to remember I can not help anyone until i help myself!
Sucks but its sadly true! I can not help my boyfrined....I can not help my friend....and it just plain sucks...all I can do right now is get my own shit together first.... If I dont and I start helping my friends out....then I will start falling to pieces and in the end...me falling to pieces is soooooooo not going to help anyone out.
Ok I have to go...because my mom wants to have a word with me....haha....I think she has sensed that something is not right with me..... ekkkkk.... scary shit! I dont want to lie to my mom cuz I hate lying...but do I tell her the truth....ekkkk... no way....cant do that....truth is too truthful at the moment..ekkk...oh such a fucking dilema!