ok soooooooooooo....ummm yeah

[not_a_bad_girl]

Well I talked to Brady...and he now knows....and I asked him to think about where he wants to go from here... He wants to get it even...if ya know what I mean... Which I understand...so right now I dont know where we are at or where we are going to go... he said he would call me today after he thought about it... I think I hurt him alot but he is not letting on that I did...and I feel like shit about it. So yes I dont know if he is going to tell me to get lost or give me another chance... I know he is pissed about it but also he is handling it all pretty well... I mean he isn't flipping out and told me he couldn't be too angry with me since we are not "going out" and he told me to do it anyways... just didn't think I would. Yeah so its all a bit messy right now. I am sad... I dont know what to do really... I'm just kinda blah... He did go back into some stuff this weekend....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! But he pulled himself out of it... If I do get another chance I am sitting him down and we are so going to talk about this shit cuz I cant deal with it!

DRAMA....did I mention I hate DRAMA....and that it follows me everywhere I go!!! EKKKKKKKKEKKKKKEKKKKEEKKKK.... Ok time to get off the damn computer so I can get my cleaning done. JOY! Some one just shoot me now.....please!