Advice I'm attempting to take....
True love is when you love someone and want the best for them no matter what; even if that means that they're not supposed to be with you.
I wish that this was one of those entries where I got to be all like, "I AM IN LOVE AND I AM HAPPY." However, I am scared shitless that I am in love with someone and am not supposed to be with them. At what point do you stop waiting for them to love you too? A year, 2 years, 10 years? HOW LONG DO I FREAKING HAVE TO WAIT? I mean, really, you can only expect a girl to be patient for so long. Fate, completely content in the complex game she is playing, is obviously happy to watch me suffer. Isn't it fabulous? Practically busting to tell the person, but you are unable to let your feelings known. Do those feelings eventually just wither away, after years of repression and doubt?
You can be in love with someone and not know how to love them.
Which brings me to my next point, this whole idea of loving without knowing how to love them. That is the most tragic, ironic twist of fate I have ever heard. And, seeing how fate and I have gotten along lately, she'll probably find that amusing in my case.
And, it kills me how people fall in and out of love with each other every single day... Or they find someone to love them like it's easy. Just go to Wal-Mart, pick out a boy, and bring him home. WHY NOT ME!?!?
While I believe in karma... I don't think Your love karma and your life karma mix. Not that I'm close to sainthood, but I mean, I've done some good things in my day. Not to be cocky, but if your life karma and love karma mixed, I would be happily, giddy in love. But, I'm not. I'm on the verge of misery some days.
Just another post by another broken-hearted girl waiting, wishing, praying, hoping, breathing for her turn.
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The saddest part of this entry? The only person in the world I wish would read this won't.
Or maybe that's the best part.
Desperation isn't attractive.