Class
This is apparenlty the last week of classes, then a study period, then my finals. well i'm going to fail. everything is catching up with me, including my non-class going, non-language lab going, and non-reading response writing. Whats sad is how crazy good i am at class participation when i dont do any of the home participation that people view as "required". ok so... going to fail no... but i would predict maybe 2 b's and 2 c's, my dad is going to FLIP OUT. but no one is really doing much better. and now i have other things on my mind.
i have no idea what i want to do right now. about anything. i know a couple of things. i know who i love and who i want to be with. but i dont know anything else.
who the fuck is mapping out the future? is that something im supposed to be doing right now? bc im not doing it..... and other people are and including me in them.... what does that mean, am i forced to go with it bc the picture has already been painted to include my face? no one seems to care about how i get there, just that im sitting at the same stupid table....
and why am i the only one that believes in making sacrifices here? i feel like, as the only one who doesnt think you can have your cake and eat it too, im the only one not doing it. i mean, if you dont HAVE to give something up, why the hell am i doing it?
i have no idea what i want to do right now. about anything. i know a couple of things. i know who i love and who i want to be with. but i dont know anything else.
who the fuck is mapping out the future? is that something im supposed to be doing right now? bc im not doing it..... and other people are and including me in them.... what does that mean, am i forced to go with it bc the picture has already been painted to include my face? no one seems to care about how i get there, just that im sitting at the same stupid table....
and why am i the only one that believes in making sacrifices here? i feel like, as the only one who doesnt think you can have your cake and eat it too, im the only one not doing it. i mean, if you dont HAVE to give something up, why the hell am i doing it?