depressed, lost and alone.
subject says it all really. I feel like shit today, and I dont know why it's come on so suddenly. just been shopping with Mum, and that was hard. it shouldnt have been. plus I feel like I am doing nothing, going nowhere with my life. I know it'll get better but that thought is fuck all comfort at the mo. although kinda relieved I didnt end up drunk last night, for once. that's one thing I managed to control at least. spent a bit of my wages, I wasnt gonna but I figured as long as I dont leave myself skint I should be OK, so I've bought a couple of cheap DVD's (Resident Evil and Clockwork Orange) and The Cure's greatest hits...on the strength of having hear "Lullaby" and "Friday I'm In Love" as well as a few live tracks, and I'm pleasantly surprised with it, it's really good. and I'm gonna buy some clothes (I want to start wearing less black) but that's it. oh and booking my theory test. but I will not leave myself skint, I have Xmas to think about. god, that's gonna be a fun one this year. as well as gigs - those who havent paid me for Blink can I please have your money ASAP so I can book? thanks. Lostprophets should be cool, and Green Day next year. also wanna see the Foos at some point (well duh, they are still my favourite band, and Dave we are goin dude next time they are touring.) Heather's coming up next weekend, so that should be good, give me something to take my mind off stuff anyway. knowing my luck I'll see her and everything I felt will come flooding back. oh well.