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laaaaadeeeefuckingdah.
i'm almost glad this week is ending and i can put it past me. all i have to do is get over this midterm, and hopefully not foil the lab. its very sad to say that my crystallization lab did not go as well as i had wanted. i broke my craig tube and pretty much all of my transferred solvent disappeared. its very very sad.
today, we get to play with ETHER. and that, you guys makes me happy. i can be high in lab and itll be okay. i like keeping vials of chemicals with me. no one really suspects them-- perhaps i should put a sign that reads: drink me. i'm going to get so ripped today that its almost going to be exciting. i like being high out of choice other than my own. its like someone just sticking it in my face and saying inhale. jasl;kfjsad;l excitement.
the whole world is fixated on being in love. and now that i'm sort of settled with shawn i dont wonder about stupid tarty things like that. i do however wonder about every other cheeky little number that gets up in my business, of course its only reciprocal. my new predicament however is wonder if shawn is going to ever feel the same way, or if he remotely.... whatever. lets be hung up in our own time.
i dont really like talking to andre. why? i'm not here to stroke your fucking ego. isnt that always the case with most guys. im glad i declined on his offer to visit him while shawn and i would be in california. the last thing we honestly need is for him to try to step in... like he always did.
SO . a little bug told me that YOURE STILL IN LOVE WITH ME. well we know i'm that good.
18 days of no cutting. 21 is my goal. i think i'm almost proud of myself.
the boyfriend and i are going out to dinner tonight in A TOWN (lol), then we're going back up to SEATOWN (hur hur) so we can spend friday night together and more sleeping in on saturday. dum dum dummmmm infatuation.
i want to listen to madonna.
i'm almost glad this week is ending and i can put it past me. all i have to do is get over this midterm, and hopefully not foil the lab. its very sad to say that my crystallization lab did not go as well as i had wanted. i broke my craig tube and pretty much all of my transferred solvent disappeared. its very very sad.
today, we get to play with ETHER. and that, you guys makes me happy. i can be high in lab and itll be okay. i like keeping vials of chemicals with me. no one really suspects them-- perhaps i should put a sign that reads: drink me. i'm going to get so ripped today that its almost going to be exciting. i like being high out of choice other than my own. its like someone just sticking it in my face and saying inhale. jasl;kfjsad;l excitement.
the whole world is fixated on being in love. and now that i'm sort of settled with shawn i dont wonder about stupid tarty things like that. i do however wonder about every other cheeky little number that gets up in my business, of course its only reciprocal. my new predicament however is wonder if shawn is going to ever feel the same way, or if he remotely.... whatever. lets be hung up in our own time.
i dont really like talking to andre. why? i'm not here to stroke your fucking ego. isnt that always the case with most guys. im glad i declined on his offer to visit him while shawn and i would be in california. the last thing we honestly need is for him to try to step in... like he always did.
SO . a little bug told me that YOURE STILL IN LOVE WITH ME. well we know i'm that good.
18 days of no cutting. 21 is my goal. i think i'm almost proud of myself.
the boyfriend and i are going out to dinner tonight in A TOWN (lol), then we're going back up to SEATOWN (hur hur) so we can spend friday night together and more sleeping in on saturday. dum dum dummmmm infatuation.
i want to listen to madonna.