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[norcal_blondie]

i know i've said this over and over and everyone is more than likely getting tired of it.......but i miss him......and then i think about it and i realize that i don't miss him....i miss the love that come along with him. i don't miss all of the nasty things he said and i def. don't miss the way he had complete control over me BUT i DO miss the fact that i could love him and i felt love between us. its been almost 5 months since we broke up and i really need to get over it and move on. i know it probably sounds like im just whinning...but its so hard for me to look at couples that are so happy and in love without hating them because of the fact that i don't have that anymore! i just want someone thats gonna be there for me no matter what. not a guy whos heard of my mistakes and is only talking to be because supposedly im 'easy' now......or as others would put it a hoe. i need someone. someone to hold me when im sad, someone to make me laugh when the only thing i want to do is cry. yea at school im 'happy'.....i don't think anyone knows how hard it is to act that way. i just try to get thru the day, go home get the yelling with my parents over stupid shit done with, and sleep then wake up and do it all over again. i want something else to look forward to. i want to look forward to goin to school knowing im gonna see that one special person that makes me happier than any girl in the world. its been hard............i just need some help.....

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow