chai? enemy? no...it can't be. are you sick or something? why were you at the hospital? why didn't i know so that i could come visit you? why am i in the dark all the time? i hope you are okay now. when are you going to use that number i gave you? i guess i could call you. but you see, i have this insecurity. i can't call people cus i think they hate me. even if they tell me they love me a thousand times. i think it's pretty selfish. but for some reason i can't get past it. i beat myself up about it and other people notice it too. and then tons of stuff will build up and i'll be like, who could i call and talk to? and i'll call some random person and pour everything out on them and really freak them out. and then i feel even more selfish. i try so hard to not think about myself and think about what other people need. but self-centeredness must be some kind of chronic disease i have. why can't i maintain healthy relationships in which each side gives a little and receives a little? this was just going to be a short little comment to tell you that i would love to befriend you, if i am capable of doing so. instead, you got way more information than you probably wanted. so yeah, let's hang out, or talk, or something. you know, those social things that people do that i am an utter failure at. but i will put forth an effort. i promise. with you especially. and i believe i can be successful. with you especially. so let's do it. chai and conversation? sounds good to me. for us. hasta muyyyyyyy pronto. ~sabina
~sabina
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I will call.
And we will be friends.
And you will make new friends.
And smile often.
Trust me.
Just trust me.
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