Thanks for hanging out...now for the real fun!
I keep telling myself it's ok. I should be used to it by now. But for some reason my expectations were higher than they used to be. They shouldn't have been. I guess I just thought things could somehow go back to normal, like before the summer. But they're different now, they always will be. It really hurts. I didn't realize how much we'd grown apart since he left. I kind of replaced him in my life. It's all surface stuff now. He believes me when I say, yeah I'm fine. Doesn't question it. I really hate getting ditched by my best friend for a bottle.