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My poor little head is about to explode.
I have 1,000 emotions and thoughts just circulating. Maybe its because its Valentine's Day. I don't know, I just know that I wish I were in someone else's body and in someone else's life right now.
I talked a lot tonight to people about my situation and realize there is no answer LIFE JUST ISN'T FAIR
And life is defintely staring back at me and going HAHAHAHAH AHAHA FUCK YOU ANGELINA HAHAHAHAHHA
And now I know what its like to sit and hear my laugh out loud. Freaking annoying.
It also sucks, because no one really understands me. I know theres one person who would understand me and I miss their friendship right now.
Thru all the formulating, guessing, and testing I've come to a conclusion:
I will NOT fucking change the way I look, act, and feel for someone.
I will get a guy to LOVE me for who I am AND what I LOOK LIKE.
Someone has got to love the chunk-a chunk-a right?
All I know..its that I'm tired of waiting.
And I wish for just once, god would grant that one prayer.
You know the feeling when something is so close, but so freaking far away?
FUCK BEING BEST FRIENDS.
FUCKING A.
I'm so angry.
....I had a great convo with Andrew Farmer today. L O V E HIM. Cameron Sheets..lol.
I also had a great trip down memory lane with Steph. Good old times. Miss those. Those were the originals. EAT THAT PERSONAL HISTORY PROJECT.
I feel like eating a 10 pound choc. bar and then throwing it up.
Take that ballerina!
I have 1,000 emotions and thoughts just circulating. Maybe its because its Valentine's Day. I don't know, I just know that I wish I were in someone else's body and in someone else's life right now.
I talked a lot tonight to people about my situation and realize there is no answer LIFE JUST ISN'T FAIR
And life is defintely staring back at me and going HAHAHAHAH AHAHA FUCK YOU ANGELINA HAHAHAHAHHA
And now I know what its like to sit and hear my laugh out loud. Freaking annoying.
It also sucks, because no one really understands me. I know theres one person who would understand me and I miss their friendship right now.
Thru all the formulating, guessing, and testing I've come to a conclusion:
I will NOT fucking change the way I look, act, and feel for someone.
I will get a guy to LOVE me for who I am AND what I LOOK LIKE.
Someone has got to love the chunk-a chunk-a right?
All I know..its that I'm tired of waiting.
And I wish for just once, god would grant that one prayer.
You know the feeling when something is so close, but so freaking far away?
FUCK BEING BEST FRIENDS.
FUCKING A.
I'm so angry.
....I had a great convo with Andrew Farmer today. L O V E HIM. Cameron Sheets..lol.
I also had a great trip down memory lane with Steph. Good old times. Miss those. Those were the originals. EAT THAT PERSONAL HISTORY PROJECT.
I feel like eating a 10 pound choc. bar and then throwing it up.
Take that ballerina!