Refreshed..and laughed out
This past month has been a whirl wind of emotions, but one thing it has missed was truly being happy and laughing.
I don't update LJ as much anymore..because there isn't anything good to write about.
But tonight.
was.
great.
It was so great because it was so last min, and so unexpectingly amazing and simple.
I went to the movies at CP with Luis.
Thats it. We saw Hitch and it was one of the best movies ever. I swear to god we laughed every 5 min..like really loud the WHOLE night. We jammed in the car to the best music..and Luis is CRAZY and a great dancer. And I saw people I knew..and..it was just such a great night.
I miss me. I miss being able to go out and be myself, and be crazy and LAUGH as much I want to..but at something that is truly funny. And I didn't realize how much I missed it..and how much of that has left me until tonight.
On the other hand, there are other pressing matters. I'm not happy. Theres a billion reasons why. And something has got to change. I know I spent so much of my life wanting one thing, just one. And the sad part is...I know I will never get it. And yet I still keep wanting. I guess I'm sad, pathetic and twisted..but I guess thats what happens.
whatever, what am I saying?
All I know is that I love Luis and Laughing is my Anti-drug.
I don't update LJ as much anymore..because there isn't anything good to write about.
But tonight.
was.
great.
It was so great because it was so last min, and so unexpectingly amazing and simple.
I went to the movies at CP with Luis.
Thats it. We saw Hitch and it was one of the best movies ever. I swear to god we laughed every 5 min..like really loud the WHOLE night. We jammed in the car to the best music..and Luis is CRAZY and a great dancer. And I saw people I knew..and..it was just such a great night.
I miss me. I miss being able to go out and be myself, and be crazy and LAUGH as much I want to..but at something that is truly funny. And I didn't realize how much I missed it..and how much of that has left me until tonight.
On the other hand, there are other pressing matters. I'm not happy. Theres a billion reasons why. And something has got to change. I know I spent so much of my life wanting one thing, just one. And the sad part is...I know I will never get it. And yet I still keep wanting. I guess I'm sad, pathetic and twisted..but I guess thats what happens.
whatever, what am I saying?
All I know is that I love Luis and Laughing is my Anti-drug.