Nommy foods again and a rant (don't care if you don't like me being drama llama)
Today I went out for Greek food in Windsor, so first proper walk around a town since the accident.
Then I got home and thought about THAT and had to punch the wall numerous times to calm down from anger and despair.
After that i spent rest of day revising more chemistry, yay -_-
I have fuck all to look forward to save kairi moon's signing on the 29th but then december with lonely winter cold and nothing on and i'll still be recovering, you know thanks a fucking bunch god, i'm really starting to question my faith here, maybe I should be agnostic, being jewish never did me any favours.
all i get is constant shit and jokes and i try take with good humour but you know, everything little thing pisses me off right now, nothing to look forward to, NOTHING EXCEPT WORK AND EXAMS.
i'll finish this entry by quoting an alkaline trio song called love love kiss kiss, should give an idea.
"It doesn't hlep you're freezing in your bed, your blankets aren't enough all you wwant is someone there, and all you say is so what love love, kiss kiss... blah blah blah
You're making me sick, i wish you'd just stop showing off for the rest of us that no one wants to love it's hard enouh trying to drink another winer all alone love love, kiss kiss, blah blah,".
If i were old enough I probably would drink my liver to death about now.
What the fuck have i got waiting for me. NOTHING
who have i got waiting for me. NO ONE
do I have any happiness. NO
I don't care if you think i'm being a drama llama at this point, and I thank anyone who's supoorted me at the moment but i still want to say FUCK YOU to one or two people but I can't because it goes against my feelings and if i could kill my feelings while i wouldn't be happy, at least i'd be able to not feel lonelyness and anger at all this shit.
For fucks sake, I'm gunna take my sleeping pills and then sod off.
not like i'll ever make anyone happy anyway
Then I got home and thought about THAT and had to punch the wall numerous times to calm down from anger and despair.
After that i spent rest of day revising more chemistry, yay -_-
I have fuck all to look forward to save kairi moon's signing on the 29th but then december with lonely winter cold and nothing on and i'll still be recovering, you know thanks a fucking bunch god, i'm really starting to question my faith here, maybe I should be agnostic, being jewish never did me any favours.
all i get is constant shit and jokes and i try take with good humour but you know, everything little thing pisses me off right now, nothing to look forward to, NOTHING EXCEPT WORK AND EXAMS.
i'll finish this entry by quoting an alkaline trio song called love love kiss kiss, should give an idea.
"It doesn't hlep you're freezing in your bed, your blankets aren't enough all you wwant is someone there, and all you say is so what love love, kiss kiss... blah blah blah
You're making me sick, i wish you'd just stop showing off for the rest of us that no one wants to love it's hard enouh trying to drink another winer all alone love love, kiss kiss, blah blah,".
If i were old enough I probably would drink my liver to death about now.
What the fuck have i got waiting for me. NOTHING
who have i got waiting for me. NO ONE
do I have any happiness. NO
I don't care if you think i'm being a drama llama at this point, and I thank anyone who's supoorted me at the moment but i still want to say FUCK YOU to one or two people but I can't because it goes against my feelings and if i could kill my feelings while i wouldn't be happy, at least i'd be able to not feel lonelyness and anger at all this shit.
For fucks sake, I'm gunna take my sleeping pills and then sod off.
not like i'll ever make anyone happy anyway