I don't write Meta... this is NOT Meta... lol
Seriously- you know if you're my friend... I'm black and white... honestly... I dont own pastels... cause really ... all the pink in the world is in Shaz's room or on her body... hahahaa (teasing- not!) but I gotta just get this bit off my chest or outta of head cause it wont leave me alone... therefore... let me rant, ramble.. whatever... . so okay- I know the war between the SamGirls and DeanGirls right now is likely far worse than the war between Heaven and Hell and god knows its likely more bloody than the friggin' Apocalypse- but I couldnt give a damn about who's more at fault or who needs to say 'sorry'... those people need to get a life and grow up in my opinon. No- what's driving me crazy- especially after last night are the nuances... and here's what I'm going to rant about... first... if you think Dean is sooo disappointed in his baby-bro, doesnt trust him to the point that he maybe doesnt love him... then why does he tell Cas- when the angel asks for the God-EMF (holy--freakin-crap its been around Dean's neck for nearly twenty years) amulet - make sure I get that back... if you're really pissed at someone- would you really care about some trinket they gave you a couple of decades ago? Did you see the look in his eyes? I mean... I've seen toddlers that have relinquished teddy bears with less reluctance than Dean did that amulet. But ok- maybe we can just chalk that up to it having sentimental value and having nothing to do with the fact that Sam gave it to him, Fine - then how about that little tidbit at the very end. I know so many out there were focused on the fact that Sam said he needed to leave and Dean said "yep I think you do..." but what I'm talking about was the part about "You want to take the Impala?" Honestly- I'm not sure I heard anything after that. Now I know some people might think that was just Dean offering and he really didnt mean it... but again- think about it (god knows I have). There's only a couple of rationale explainations for him saying that. (1.) Season 3 Dean... "I'm gonna die anyway- so Take the Impala Sam I wont need it" - nope that doesnt seem to be the case here.( 2.) Season 4 Dean... I'm broken, cant bear to go on - take the Impala Sam- I dont deserve her... Nope- doesnt work for me. (3.) Even Season 5 Dean - The Apocalypse is upon us and we cant possibly win- so take the Impala Sam, might as well cause we're all gonna die anyway... nope- if anything - Dean charges off into the maelstorm in the Impala- so that doesnt work either... maybe even (4). You can say Dean offers cause he knows its an empty offer- Sam wont take the Impala anyway... yeah maybe- but thats lame and I dont think even Dean is that cheesy. SOOOOO what does that leave? This... Dean still cares and worries about his baby bro- despite it all- despite the perceived betrayal, despite whats happened, this is his way of saying "take the car - its my way of still watching over you, of protecting you - just like I have for my whole life". Granted, Sam didn't. but again- it wasnt like Dean looked relieved when Sam said no either... Anyway-I think what I'm stuck on was that for all the "oh my god- Sam left and Dean let him!!!" there was just that little tell of Dean trying to give a hint of the lifelong protectiveness thats governed his every waking moment since he was four, offering up the Impala wasnt just some flippant nonchalant words, but a deeper underlying hint at the inner turmoil that I think Dean is struggling with. Yes, he doesnt trust his brother, yes he's hurt to the core, but no- he cant just wash away twenty something years of instilled watchfulness and protectiveness no matter what. Its still 'family first' and I thin we're still seeing that in the offer of the Impala and the reluctant remittance of the amulet... or at least thats what buzzed around my head all night long well after the end credits... so yeah- I dont write metas... and this wasnt one... thus endeth the rant, ramble or stupid-assed musing...