Emoness
Its sad, that as of late you feel, so alone, yes it is your time of the month, that time where in there is nothing but monotomy. Everything you is constant, never changing. It irritates you, that somehow, no one will listen, of is they do listen they don't really care. There is nothing you can do.
You tell yourself, hey i have friends, yey for you, but you still feel alone. You think about what you have been doing wrong in your life. You feel like self destructing, like exploding, you feel hated. Through this feeling you feel down right uncared for, downright uninteresting and alone. Everyone has a life, everyone does their own things everyone has their own life.
You then wonder, why the hell do i feel so shitty when i understand that I'm not the most important person in the world, that everyone's busy, that everyone's got their own life. You don'e answer but deep inside you know. You know that its going to make it worse, you know its more that just a simple answer that will go away. You don't tell your friends and your family, cause you know how they see you. And you feel so fake, sometimes you feel of giving up the friendships, giving up the invested time, and plain giving up on everything. Yet eventhough you think of these things you still move on. Not being a coward and contemplaiting on giving up. But rather you know there will be somethings that will change, the people you care for, how you treat your friends, and how they will treat and see you. In all honesty, you think that the feeling is just in you.
Its just that, you can't simply let go because you're hurting so much that they don't even notice any difference.
Boo.
You tell yourself, hey i have friends, yey for you, but you still feel alone. You think about what you have been doing wrong in your life. You feel like self destructing, like exploding, you feel hated. Through this feeling you feel down right uncared for, downright uninteresting and alone. Everyone has a life, everyone does their own things everyone has their own life.
You then wonder, why the hell do i feel so shitty when i understand that I'm not the most important person in the world, that everyone's busy, that everyone's got their own life. You don'e answer but deep inside you know. You know that its going to make it worse, you know its more that just a simple answer that will go away. You don't tell your friends and your family, cause you know how they see you. And you feel so fake, sometimes you feel of giving up the friendships, giving up the invested time, and plain giving up on everything. Yet eventhough you think of these things you still move on. Not being a coward and contemplaiting on giving up. But rather you know there will be somethings that will change, the people you care for, how you treat your friends, and how they will treat and see you. In all honesty, you think that the feeling is just in you.
Its just that, you can't simply let go because you're hurting so much that they don't even notice any difference.
Boo.