Apology
Obviously you know this is for you if it is. I started write it as an email but I think that maybe a semi-public one here is appropriate, especially considering the way you sometimes used it our fresman and sophomore years.
I know that repeated "i'm sorrys" don't make past situations any better. I don't know if we need to discuss what we talked about last night any further, it is up to you. But I never issued a formal apology to you and I want to.
I am sorry that I threw away a friendship with you for the fist half of college. More importantly I am sorry about the way that I went about it. I should have never flaunted my relationship with Phillip in your face, you didn't deserve that. In all honesty a part of me really wanted to sting you a little, but not hurt you that much.
If I could do it over, I would have come face to face with you over Christmas break that year or at least talked to you on the phone instead of sending you an email. I can't say it would have been a good idea for me to talk to you much that semester except for an occasional email, but I should have told Phillip to fuck off and to have continued to talk to you that summer and maybe seen you and tried to work on a friendship. You are one of the few people that I click with well no matter what and I should have trusted that that aspect of us could survive eventhough we weren't going out and we were growing into different people than our high school selves. To answer back to an entry you wrote sophomore year, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you and to hear all about those things when they happened and I missed you too. I love you, n.
I know that repeated "i'm sorrys" don't make past situations any better. I don't know if we need to discuss what we talked about last night any further, it is up to you. But I never issued a formal apology to you and I want to.
I am sorry that I threw away a friendship with you for the fist half of college. More importantly I am sorry about the way that I went about it. I should have never flaunted my relationship with Phillip in your face, you didn't deserve that. In all honesty a part of me really wanted to sting you a little, but not hurt you that much.
If I could do it over, I would have come face to face with you over Christmas break that year or at least talked to you on the phone instead of sending you an email. I can't say it would have been a good idea for me to talk to you much that semester except for an occasional email, but I should have told Phillip to fuck off and to have continued to talk to you that summer and maybe seen you and tried to work on a friendship. You are one of the few people that I click with well no matter what and I should have trusted that that aspect of us could survive eventhough we weren't going out and we were growing into different people than our high school selves. To answer back to an entry you wrote sophomore year, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you and to hear all about those things when they happened and I missed you too. I love you, n.