Historical
I reviewed, last night - I indeed have never posted to feb 29. I had three prior chances and missed them, apparently. So here it is!
Ok, a thing I forgot to mention, is that FIF put the onus on me to change and become a better person in her final message before essentially blocking communication (although I could harrass her on Facebook I think -- shit I just checked and she unfriended me there. Shouldn't've checked, that rustled my jimmies. Dammit. Communication isn't blocked though). Not that I want to. My stance is obviously that she's an immature idiot and my vitriolic final retort (that didn't go through) involved me doubting she'd be mature enough in 10 years. Or something. I don't want to reread what I tried to send. She also tried pinning my anger towards her on "my depression" and wished she could get me some help. Maybe that was sincere, dunno. Sounded more like deferring blame again.
ANYWAY, just wanted to include that for posterity because I forgot to append it to yesterday's post. I probably promise this is the last I speak of her, lest she contacts me out of the blue or something, which I expect in the next year or two. But hey, I expected my ex to contact me when Adele's song about calling someone came out, and I was totally wrong about that. I guess I dispassionately tried setting that bridge ablaze multiple times and succeeded in the end - and maybe FIF isn't the type to initiate bridge-rebuilding, after failing with her ex (although he's fucking retarded (although maybe I'm fucking retarded)). Lest I forget, she set the onus on me contacting her first, too. I was the pursuer in the relationship, whereas her ex was the inwards non-communicator in theirs, so it's probably safe to assume she'll follow whatever pattern was set.
Kind of interesting how many facets I can wonder about, isn't it?
I have to train new people tomorrow. YAY. Thought it was today, but it wain't dawg
Ok, a thing I forgot to mention, is that FIF put the onus on me to change and become a better person in her final message before essentially blocking communication (although I could harrass her on Facebook I think -- shit I just checked and she unfriended me there. Shouldn't've checked, that rustled my jimmies. Dammit. Communication isn't blocked though). Not that I want to. My stance is obviously that she's an immature idiot and my vitriolic final retort (that didn't go through) involved me doubting she'd be mature enough in 10 years. Or something. I don't want to reread what I tried to send. She also tried pinning my anger towards her on "my depression" and wished she could get me some help. Maybe that was sincere, dunno. Sounded more like deferring blame again.
ANYWAY, just wanted to include that for posterity because I forgot to append it to yesterday's post. I probably promise this is the last I speak of her, lest she contacts me out of the blue or something, which I expect in the next year or two. But hey, I expected my ex to contact me when Adele's song about calling someone came out, and I was totally wrong about that. I guess I dispassionately tried setting that bridge ablaze multiple times and succeeded in the end - and maybe FIF isn't the type to initiate bridge-rebuilding, after failing with her ex (although he's fucking retarded (although maybe I'm fucking retarded)). Lest I forget, she set the onus on me contacting her first, too. I was the pursuer in the relationship, whereas her ex was the inwards non-communicator in theirs, so it's probably safe to assume she'll follow whatever pattern was set.
Kind of interesting how many facets I can wonder about, isn't it?
I have to train new people tomorrow. YAY. Thought it was today, but it wain't dawg