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a lot on the mind...
a lot of things have happened recently to make me think about a lot of different things and such. work and home and calls and meeting and all this and that.
the date was ok. wasnt what i expected at all really though. we did eat dinner..but at fazolli's. and a movie too. 'stay alive'. was decent. sucked there were so many little kids there screaming and talking. and jamie met up w/ some of her little friends too. they were kinda talky too....but only half of it. then wondered around. while jamie and her friends kinda talked to each other. it was ok. still a good night. then saturday i took the day off to eat w/ my dad since he decided to be w/ the family that night actually. but chris was working and mandy left. so yea...not that great. yea. chris is home now. and first night home he was drinking. he learned NOTHING! i dont know. yesterday was work all day...it was decent i guess. a lot of fun till about 6. then it was crappy. sprinkle in some jamie see/phone time here and there w/ a dash of 11. geeked for KH2 coming out! and i have to see the doc that day too about my really bad breathing.
today was a roller coaster. set my alarm to do something w/ mala real quick. then TRIED to talk to jamie. that didnt happen till she wanted me to pick her up. didnt really want to but i did anyways. took her to 2 places then i went and got my check and cashed it. she made a comment about my driving. so i stuck up for myself and told her she can walk next time. that was the end right there. took her home...and a bit of fighting. came home...and not 10 mins in...someone called me up needing a favor. took like an hour for that. came home again and jamie was on. more fighting. went to see her to drop some stuff off and...she did a total 180. all nice and everything. she does this like once a month. flips over something little i did, says it is over then sees me in person and takes it all back. i dont know. kinda tough. she has a SEVERE anger problem in her life. and it is taken out on me all the time. anytime i say no or stick up for myself it comes out. and she is a little controlling too at somethings.
so...i have a lot on my mind to think about cause so many things are coming at me now. so many things in my head about where i am in this whole thing. this isnt where i saw myself at all. this isnt a bad thing or whatever else at all! just......i need some time to think about things and what i am seeing and where i want it all to be. cause there ARE a few things in her that i said i would never take as a partner....but happens anyways. i love her to death though...so yea. i am going to be kinda sucluded for a while about this w/ thoughts.
i should get to work though. is it weird they made sure i didnt work april fool's day?
a lot of things have happened recently to make me think about a lot of different things and such. work and home and calls and meeting and all this and that.
the date was ok. wasnt what i expected at all really though. we did eat dinner..but at fazolli's. and a movie too. 'stay alive'. was decent. sucked there were so many little kids there screaming and talking. and jamie met up w/ some of her little friends too. they were kinda talky too....but only half of it. then wondered around. while jamie and her friends kinda talked to each other. it was ok. still a good night. then saturday i took the day off to eat w/ my dad since he decided to be w/ the family that night actually. but chris was working and mandy left. so yea...not that great. yea. chris is home now. and first night home he was drinking. he learned NOTHING! i dont know. yesterday was work all day...it was decent i guess. a lot of fun till about 6. then it was crappy. sprinkle in some jamie see/phone time here and there w/ a dash of 11. geeked for KH2 coming out! and i have to see the doc that day too about my really bad breathing.
today was a roller coaster. set my alarm to do something w/ mala real quick. then TRIED to talk to jamie. that didnt happen till she wanted me to pick her up. didnt really want to but i did anyways. took her to 2 places then i went and got my check and cashed it. she made a comment about my driving. so i stuck up for myself and told her she can walk next time. that was the end right there. took her home...and a bit of fighting. came home...and not 10 mins in...someone called me up needing a favor. took like an hour for that. came home again and jamie was on. more fighting. went to see her to drop some stuff off and...she did a total 180. all nice and everything. she does this like once a month. flips over something little i did, says it is over then sees me in person and takes it all back. i dont know. kinda tough. she has a SEVERE anger problem in her life. and it is taken out on me all the time. anytime i say no or stick up for myself it comes out. and she is a little controlling too at somethings.
so...i have a lot on my mind to think about cause so many things are coming at me now. so many things in my head about where i am in this whole thing. this isnt where i saw myself at all. this isnt a bad thing or whatever else at all! just......i need some time to think about things and what i am seeing and where i want it all to be. cause there ARE a few things in her that i said i would never take as a partner....but happens anyways. i love her to death though...so yea. i am going to be kinda sucluded for a while about this w/ thoughts.
i should get to work though. is it weird they made sure i didnt work april fool's day?