a life crisis...
so..right now i am going through a very tough tragity...
so when i woke up thrusday at 11...mom was gone. didnt think anything of it. she goes off tanning or whatever in the mornings sometimes. so i take off to work. work was ok cause i got out early...nice and early. i get home and dad wasnt home. thought that to be a little weird. figured he would be home at 7 on a weekday. u know, after dinner he relaxes before going out. so i go in and start relaxing. about an hour in, my sister comes home and gives me some very shocking news. my mom i guess was gone till like 5:30 and my dad came home early from work. i guess...i guess.........my mom was w/ someone else and dad knew. they got into a fight and dad packed up a few things and was out. very very hurt right then and there. but it gets worse. later at night, my sister ended up getting in contact w/ my dad. he told her......he isnt coming back. that he will be here saturday for almost all of his stuff and that is it. he is gone. i...i am losing my family. my mom cheated on my dad and now....i dont know what is happening!!! i heard my sister talking about her having fun on the net w/ a few people but to go through w/ it!? it even shocked my sister. and to top it off...i think chris might be gone too. off to jail. if not, he is already shook up and isnt the same cause of how his life is. so...my whole family is falling apart around me and i have no where to run! this is going to be a very trying few weeks for my. a lot of tears i can already predict. a lot of yelling. i dont know what to do at all. i need help...bad. i need support...bad. i always say i am a loner and dont need anyone or whatever. right now...i NEED people to help me! i can make it alone! i am afraid of what i might do if i am stuck to deal alone. this is a life crisis right now.
i will most likly end up being a changed man after this one way or another. and i can already forsee a move to a new house one way or another too. i am going to have to wait and see what happens. but right now...all i feel like doing is crying my eyes out that the thing that was suppose to last forever...isnt...
so when i woke up thrusday at 11...mom was gone. didnt think anything of it. she goes off tanning or whatever in the mornings sometimes. so i take off to work. work was ok cause i got out early...nice and early. i get home and dad wasnt home. thought that to be a little weird. figured he would be home at 7 on a weekday. u know, after dinner he relaxes before going out. so i go in and start relaxing. about an hour in, my sister comes home and gives me some very shocking news. my mom i guess was gone till like 5:30 and my dad came home early from work. i guess...i guess.........my mom was w/ someone else and dad knew. they got into a fight and dad packed up a few things and was out. very very hurt right then and there. but it gets worse. later at night, my sister ended up getting in contact w/ my dad. he told her......he isnt coming back. that he will be here saturday for almost all of his stuff and that is it. he is gone. i...i am losing my family. my mom cheated on my dad and now....i dont know what is happening!!! i heard my sister talking about her having fun on the net w/ a few people but to go through w/ it!? it even shocked my sister. and to top it off...i think chris might be gone too. off to jail. if not, he is already shook up and isnt the same cause of how his life is. so...my whole family is falling apart around me and i have no where to run! this is going to be a very trying few weeks for my. a lot of tears i can already predict. a lot of yelling. i dont know what to do at all. i need help...bad. i need support...bad. i always say i am a loner and dont need anyone or whatever. right now...i NEED people to help me! i can make it alone! i am afraid of what i might do if i am stuck to deal alone. this is a life crisis right now.
i will most likly end up being a changed man after this one way or another. and i can already forsee a move to a new house one way or another too. i am going to have to wait and see what happens. but right now...all i feel like doing is crying my eyes out that the thing that was suppose to last forever...isnt...