its 2am why the fuck am I awake
I've been up all day I'm tired but I don't know why I am still awake. It doesn't make sense. I just spent way too much time looking for something online that well, shouldn't matter to me at all. I was bored and I guess I had to find out for myself how horrible I am at actually doing web searches.
I always do this..right before I am all set to work on / take part in something that I've planned out well in advance or have looked forward to, I get cold feet and just want to say fuck it , I'm staying home. The holidays are like that now. Traveling all over. I do enjoy it but I'm tired this year. I'm tired of blowing money on piece of shit gifts that I'm obligated to buy for co-workers. Some I would actually spend money on anyway but I hate the fact that because person A got me a candle and person B go me a coffee mug I have to go get them something. I feel like saying ' dude, you don't want another crappy gift taking up room in your house do you... just take it from me, its cool working with you and have a happy holiday, no need for gifts'
I'm turning into a grinch. I remember loving the holidays, even the work of getting all the decoratiosn out and putting them up etc. It just seems like work that can be avoided at this point. And of course it is sooo cliche to be all nostalgic around the holidays but I don't know what the hell happened. It was a good day I truly enjoyed it.. and all of a sudden poof.
Maybe I can sleep now... Off to try..
=)=)=)
I always do this..right before I am all set to work on / take part in something that I've planned out well in advance or have looked forward to, I get cold feet and just want to say fuck it , I'm staying home. The holidays are like that now. Traveling all over. I do enjoy it but I'm tired this year. I'm tired of blowing money on piece of shit gifts that I'm obligated to buy for co-workers. Some I would actually spend money on anyway but I hate the fact that because person A got me a candle and person B go me a coffee mug I have to go get them something. I feel like saying ' dude, you don't want another crappy gift taking up room in your house do you... just take it from me, its cool working with you and have a happy holiday, no need for gifts'
I'm turning into a grinch. I remember loving the holidays, even the work of getting all the decoratiosn out and putting them up etc. It just seems like work that can be avoided at this point. And of course it is sooo cliche to be all nostalgic around the holidays but I don't know what the hell happened. It was a good day I truly enjoyed it.. and all of a sudden poof.
Maybe I can sleep now... Off to try..
=)=)=)