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i don't really concur with the livejournal world,
but for some reason i found myself on this site today...exhausted, a bit tipsy, and needing an outlet as i have all summer. But mostly the reason I found the need to hit the "update" button is that after reading the "friends" button I pressed the "recent" button. It was a conversation between myself and Jake in which we confessed the things about each other that we enjoyed, appreciated, and absolutely made each other fall. I decided that was a conversation that needed not be on the "recent" list since it is clearly, CLEARLY, clearly not relevent any longer.
The last time that I updated was before I went off to that big ol' school I refer to as U-Mass. Honestly, I don't feel that anyone cares enough to understand what went on this year becuase everyone changes constantly constantly constantly. It's rediculous for anyone to even consider "recapping" a full year.
All I know right now is today,
and today I love to sing. I love to play the bass guitar. And I love to run around with kids. Love is more powerful than the sadness, it is more important to discuss. It is more important than anything. Eventually, we all hope that love will conquer every part of the sadness we feel so that we feel "whole". Wholeness...a spouse, a few kids around the dining room table or stuck in a crib in some room screaming. Love, when will each of us reach that ultimate love; or is this even possible at all?
I must say I do not know. All I know is today. We all are just waiting, waiting, waiting. I don't want to wait anymore, but I feel that I must until finally I feel that completeness.
And the most terrifying part is that I will never find it. Well, how do you feel? Today, I'm not feeling so complete, but I can't remember the last time I did; completeness, wholeness...its for the future.
Just don't treat me like I am something that happened to you.
Kelly Robyn Wilson
but for some reason i found myself on this site today...exhausted, a bit tipsy, and needing an outlet as i have all summer. But mostly the reason I found the need to hit the "update" button is that after reading the "friends" button I pressed the "recent" button. It was a conversation between myself and Jake in which we confessed the things about each other that we enjoyed, appreciated, and absolutely made each other fall. I decided that was a conversation that needed not be on the "recent" list since it is clearly, CLEARLY, clearly not relevent any longer.
The last time that I updated was before I went off to that big ol' school I refer to as U-Mass. Honestly, I don't feel that anyone cares enough to understand what went on this year becuase everyone changes constantly constantly constantly. It's rediculous for anyone to even consider "recapping" a full year.
All I know right now is today,
and today I love to sing. I love to play the bass guitar. And I love to run around with kids. Love is more powerful than the sadness, it is more important to discuss. It is more important than anything. Eventually, we all hope that love will conquer every part of the sadness we feel so that we feel "whole". Wholeness...a spouse, a few kids around the dining room table or stuck in a crib in some room screaming. Love, when will each of us reach that ultimate love; or is this even possible at all?
I must say I do not know. All I know is today. We all are just waiting, waiting, waiting. I don't want to wait anymore, but I feel that I must until finally I feel that completeness.
And the most terrifying part is that I will never find it. Well, how do you feel? Today, I'm not feeling so complete, but I can't remember the last time I did; completeness, wholeness...its for the future.
Just don't treat me like I am something that happened to you.
Kelly Robyn Wilson