*_Brains_*
Awkward subject I suppose but Miss Caldwell is playing a zombie game in the other room so everytime a loading screen comes all I hear is the momentary groans of 'brrraaaiins'. Kind of entertaining from the other room.
Last night I gained the knowledge that someone that I love is pregnant. I don't really know how to react to the news actually. It's horrible because naturally I take the thought of unplanned teen pregnancy as some form of dissappointment and irresponsibility. I can see why I think that; your entire life is completely flipped upside down because of one thing. That one thing demolishing plans that you had for the future. Yes, you can follow out your dreams later in life but it will never work out, you most likely will never reach your 'dreams' you had in a career because all of your money is being spent on this child. Leaving the point of high school and college to be a great questionable landmark in your life. It's hard to go to school and raise a child, hence most of the drop outs, G.E.D's, and jobs and low bracket companies such as fastfood, sit-down restaurants.
I know that is a slightly narrow view on the subject but it is what you see happen the majority of the time. And yes, there are situations where everything works out for the best, education isn't a problem, money isn't an issue but those are a luxury that everyone gets. And it's horrible to hear and see people that I grew up with, and graduate with get this way. They were the greatest of people, seemed to have their heads on straight. But in the end just a single act can change that. I know not to name names though most people that need to know who they are already do know.
Unfortunately all of these facts had overwhelmed me this morning, while at work. Horrible because I had plans to hang out with someone who I have been wanting to hang out with but never do in the end because of different reasons, and I couldn't even go through with those plans. I had my cell phone turned off all day. That is how bad it was, my cell phone hasn't been turned off in over four months. I just didn't want to hear from anyone. As much of an asshole that makes me, that's just how things work out in the end. I do apologize to he who I was to hang out with, I don't mean to be an ass.
I wish I could dream again. Not in a sense of making lifetimes goals and achieving them but sleeping dreams. I haven't had one in quite a while and it's annoying. The last dream I can remember having was of Rhonda's ex Stephen and I having sex. Not the most kind of dreams to remember last but that's the last.
'Brrraaaaains, brrraaaaaaaaiiiins'
Last night I gained the knowledge that someone that I love is pregnant. I don't really know how to react to the news actually. It's horrible because naturally I take the thought of unplanned teen pregnancy as some form of dissappointment and irresponsibility. I can see why I think that; your entire life is completely flipped upside down because of one thing. That one thing demolishing plans that you had for the future. Yes, you can follow out your dreams later in life but it will never work out, you most likely will never reach your 'dreams' you had in a career because all of your money is being spent on this child. Leaving the point of high school and college to be a great questionable landmark in your life. It's hard to go to school and raise a child, hence most of the drop outs, G.E.D's, and jobs and low bracket companies such as fastfood, sit-down restaurants.
I know that is a slightly narrow view on the subject but it is what you see happen the majority of the time. And yes, there are situations where everything works out for the best, education isn't a problem, money isn't an issue but those are a luxury that everyone gets. And it's horrible to hear and see people that I grew up with, and graduate with get this way. They were the greatest of people, seemed to have their heads on straight. But in the end just a single act can change that. I know not to name names though most people that need to know who they are already do know.
Unfortunately all of these facts had overwhelmed me this morning, while at work. Horrible because I had plans to hang out with someone who I have been wanting to hang out with but never do in the end because of different reasons, and I couldn't even go through with those plans. I had my cell phone turned off all day. That is how bad it was, my cell phone hasn't been turned off in over four months. I just didn't want to hear from anyone. As much of an asshole that makes me, that's just how things work out in the end. I do apologize to he who I was to hang out with, I don't mean to be an ass.
I wish I could dream again. Not in a sense of making lifetimes goals and achieving them but sleeping dreams. I haven't had one in quite a while and it's annoying. The last dream I can remember having was of Rhonda's ex Stephen and I having sex. Not the most kind of dreams to remember last but that's the last.
'Brrraaaaains, brrraaaaaaaaiiiins'